Going down hill again....

[Carly011]

So i have gone about two weeks forcing myself to eat "norma" meals and try not to worry about the calories. I havent weighed myself either.

I just weighed myself and i have gained weight....i have gone from 92/93lbs to 96 and now i am freaking out. I can't eat. All i can think about is loosing weight. I HAVE to loose weight. I feel so fat. So gross. I cant eat anymore...i need to go back to dieting... now i have to go through the process of making myself not hungry anymore...because i know i cant eat. I cant gain anymore weight. I need to loose it...

ughhhh why do i have to be like this??? I can't even tell my therapist because i don't want to gain weight, i dont want her making me eat normal again.

[xXoblivionXx]

Carly its okay... it's going to be okay... I want you to take your scale and run over it with your car. You are BEAUTIFUL! I'm not just saying that because that is the truth! :D You are about 4 years older than me but I weight 128 lbs. Trust me you are beautiful the way you are.

[Carly011]

awww thanks. I just dont feel pretty...like i feel life i just lost those couple of lbs i would be prettier...i know i shouldnt. i know i am skinny enough but....i just can't help feeling like i need to loose weight....i want to get down to 80-85... i KNOW thats not good but i can't help it :/

And you i am sure are JUST as beautiful, INSIDE AND OUT :)

[xXoblivionXx]

Aww thanks... I don't want you to be in the 80-85 range because you will look frail and weak not pretty. Like I said you are BEAUTIFUL the way you are.

*Congrats on 250 posts :)

[Carly011]

Awww thanks :) I dont know how to stop though....the first time was hard but I feel like im even worse now.... Hopefully someone notices if I get to skinny and maybe they will help me...