I Need A Woman

[Zeh Crazy]

First of all, I identify myself as pansexual. I like guys, but I've been attracted to the female body for as long as I can remember. Thas not the issue here. Second of all, I have a boyfriend and it'll be our 1 year anniversary in a couple of days. Although I've never "technically" cheated on him, I've had feelings about wanting to be with a girl. I love my boyfriend and I do want to be with him, but I can't stop thinking about how much I want a girlfriend and for a girl to love me. I've never dated a girl, and in all actuality, girls sometimes intimidate me. I don't really know how to talk to a girl. I don't know what to do. Should I tell him and us take a break while I date a girl? Because I know the whole open relationship thing wouldn't sit well with him. ...I've just always wanted to date a girl. It's not like I'm just curious. I know for a fact that I definitely like girls and I'm serious about being with a girl. I just don't think any girls would like me. I've had "sort-of relationships" with a couple of girls. There was one girl who I was pretty serious about, but that kinda...Eh. I think for my type of character, a girl would fill the role of a partner for me better than a guy could. ...So am I supposed to be with a girl? Or should I stay with my boyfriend? Like I said, I do love him and I care very much for him. Sometimes I just think that being with a girl would be better for me.

[Desuetude]

Try talking to your boyfriend about this. Tell him how you feel and that you really aren't sure what you want at the moment and that you need a little time. If you do tell him though you have to risk maybe losing him. You don't want to be in a relationship built on lies though because in the end everything will just fall apart. I can only urge you to be honest and tell him straight because you both deserve to be happy with who you're with.

[Zeh Crazy]

The thing is, I really do want to be with him. I just kinda feel like I settled into a long-term relationship too quickly. By long-term, I mean long as in longer than most teenage relationships (a year.) If there was some way that he'd be guaranteed to still love me and want to be with me as I took a break from him and dated a girl instead, I would tell him. But there's no possible way he would allow that. I would without a doubt lose him if I told him.