camilo96
May 7th, 2012, 12:21 AM
Ok. SOO
I really don't ever talk about this stuff. .. With anyone, but I feel like this has gotten a little bit out of controll for me. And well I have found out that this forum is really really good at helping you solve problems.
So this is my freshmen year. (in high school) ..and on the transition over from middle school, the school messed up my transcript ..and put me in algebra 1 part one. Which is the lowest math class available. It devides algebra one..into two years. So by the time I graduate I'll only be in geometry. We talked to the school, and they said that there was a 30 person waiting line for algebra and that they would let me now, ..right. They never did if you didn't catch that. So I'm in the lowest class available for math . And I'm almost failing it. Why? Not because of the teacher. Infact the teacher is AMAZING. He is the best teacher I have had. But the students. Well, let me put it this way. There are seniors in this class. .. Children do drugs during class even have sex. (well not "literally" but you can imagine what they do ) they are so so disruptive, and have the attention span of a hamster. They listen to their iPod all during class, and some don't even take the test. They leave it all blank. Because of this, the average instruction time, non stop is about, a Minuit , maximum two before he has to stop and correct the class. I tried complaining to the teacher.. And he said he can't do anything about it. ........ Alright. How am I solving this problem? Simple. I'm taking a summer school program to finish part two over the summer, and go in to geometry or trig . And I'm taking notes on my iPad of EVERYTHING. and giving myself the lesson again when I get home. .........ok problem one explained
Ok . Problem two
For along as I remember , I have gotten the same talk by my dad over, and over and over and over again. And I understand perfectly the point that he is trying to make.. He says" you can take two paths in life. The correct one, or the wrong one. " ok. Gotcha. Thanks dad. I am in advanced orchestra, technical design, which is a applied course..which counts as a college course as well. I am in advanced level 2 Spanish for native speakers. And the rest are "year courses" or the average courses. (english 9....) every time I get a bad grade.. a"C" or lower. He will be sure to remind me of this lesson. But now.. With this failing math thing, and it being the lowest course and so on, he has begun to yell at me. Badly. Telling me that it's too late now. That I have made the wrong choice .(oh I forgot to mention, my 12 year old sister gets perfect A's" all the time. And gets EVERYTHING . EVERYTHING she wants, LITTERALY ) ok. So I try explaining to my father that i am doing everything in my power to fix this problem., and that I am not going down the wrong road.. That this is just a slight delay . But he has made up his mind. Making sure to remind me that I am a blundering idiot . Making jokes of "well Mabey you left your brain in Colombia when we moved here ..HAHAHAHAHAHA. And so on. So this is really getting me depressed because I love my dad. Allot. And I look up to him, all mr "director of Latin American affairs " for a government company.
I asked him, dad do you think I am dumb? And he said, NO!
We have final exams coming up, and last week I suffered from a concussion I got from swimming (long story short, I hit the wall) ...right. So my mom just now walkes in and asks me, you have the doctors note I gave you right? But she didn't give it to me! I was so sick with a headache I got out of the doctors office and went straight to the car. So my dad gets up , out of bed. And begins to yell al me. Saying," you have no right to yell in his house,,which by the way, I earned with my money. Because I went to school. And you are a waste. You will be pushed to the side in the community . No one will want to be around you. ..and you don't even care! You are what people call, the lower class. And he goes on.
..right. So right after that,I felt like seriously just crying. Nothing is ever good enough for him. He does not understand that change can't come the next day. And yes. I have tried talking with him, and explaining to him this. He has gotten to the point where I say, dad I need a new phone, (because it's beyond old, and broken ) he says, buy it! (I have a job coaching swimming SOO..) he says, u don't have any money do you... Well get used to that feeling . But noo, my sister said, dad I want my first phone, and he goes and gets her the biggest screened phone out in the market . She says she wants to play soccer, (which she played really really really well) and he puts her on the best, an most expensive league of the state. I say i want to swim, And he says , no. Your dedicating yourself to school. ...or lack off.
Point is, I can't take this anymore, I am loosing interest in life at home, I am loosing the love I have for my dad. I am loosing intrest at school. I am getting depressed. And most importantly. The person that I would go to in this situation,,,is the situation. Now I don't want answers like, show him you can do better, or talk to him.
Guys, I'm stuck. And instead of helping me up the hill, they are just adding more weight on me.
I hope you guys can help me . I feel like an idiot even trying to find someone to basically cry to. Explain my stupid problems . ..but if this works.. Puttng my problem on here , well. I'll keep on doing it as long as I can
I really don't ever talk about this stuff. .. With anyone, but I feel like this has gotten a little bit out of controll for me. And well I have found out that this forum is really really good at helping you solve problems.
So this is my freshmen year. (in high school) ..and on the transition over from middle school, the school messed up my transcript ..and put me in algebra 1 part one. Which is the lowest math class available. It devides algebra one..into two years. So by the time I graduate I'll only be in geometry. We talked to the school, and they said that there was a 30 person waiting line for algebra and that they would let me now, ..right. They never did if you didn't catch that. So I'm in the lowest class available for math . And I'm almost failing it. Why? Not because of the teacher. Infact the teacher is AMAZING. He is the best teacher I have had. But the students. Well, let me put it this way. There are seniors in this class. .. Children do drugs during class even have sex. (well not "literally" but you can imagine what they do ) they are so so disruptive, and have the attention span of a hamster. They listen to their iPod all during class, and some don't even take the test. They leave it all blank. Because of this, the average instruction time, non stop is about, a Minuit , maximum two before he has to stop and correct the class. I tried complaining to the teacher.. And he said he can't do anything about it. ........ Alright. How am I solving this problem? Simple. I'm taking a summer school program to finish part two over the summer, and go in to geometry or trig . And I'm taking notes on my iPad of EVERYTHING. and giving myself the lesson again when I get home. .........ok problem one explained
Ok . Problem two
For along as I remember , I have gotten the same talk by my dad over, and over and over and over again. And I understand perfectly the point that he is trying to make.. He says" you can take two paths in life. The correct one, or the wrong one. " ok. Gotcha. Thanks dad. I am in advanced orchestra, technical design, which is a applied course..which counts as a college course as well. I am in advanced level 2 Spanish for native speakers. And the rest are "year courses" or the average courses. (english 9....) every time I get a bad grade.. a"C" or lower. He will be sure to remind me of this lesson. But now.. With this failing math thing, and it being the lowest course and so on, he has begun to yell at me. Badly. Telling me that it's too late now. That I have made the wrong choice .(oh I forgot to mention, my 12 year old sister gets perfect A's" all the time. And gets EVERYTHING . EVERYTHING she wants, LITTERALY ) ok. So I try explaining to my father that i am doing everything in my power to fix this problem., and that I am not going down the wrong road.. That this is just a slight delay . But he has made up his mind. Making sure to remind me that I am a blundering idiot . Making jokes of "well Mabey you left your brain in Colombia when we moved here ..HAHAHAHAHAHA. And so on. So this is really getting me depressed because I love my dad. Allot. And I look up to him, all mr "director of Latin American affairs " for a government company.
I asked him, dad do you think I am dumb? And he said, NO!
We have final exams coming up, and last week I suffered from a concussion I got from swimming (long story short, I hit the wall) ...right. So my mom just now walkes in and asks me, you have the doctors note I gave you right? But she didn't give it to me! I was so sick with a headache I got out of the doctors office and went straight to the car. So my dad gets up , out of bed. And begins to yell al me. Saying," you have no right to yell in his house,,which by the way, I earned with my money. Because I went to school. And you are a waste. You will be pushed to the side in the community . No one will want to be around you. ..and you don't even care! You are what people call, the lower class. And he goes on.
..right. So right after that,I felt like seriously just crying. Nothing is ever good enough for him. He does not understand that change can't come the next day. And yes. I have tried talking with him, and explaining to him this. He has gotten to the point where I say, dad I need a new phone, (because it's beyond old, and broken ) he says, buy it! (I have a job coaching swimming SOO..) he says, u don't have any money do you... Well get used to that feeling . But noo, my sister said, dad I want my first phone, and he goes and gets her the biggest screened phone out in the market . She says she wants to play soccer, (which she played really really really well) and he puts her on the best, an most expensive league of the state. I say i want to swim, And he says , no. Your dedicating yourself to school. ...or lack off.
Point is, I can't take this anymore, I am loosing interest in life at home, I am loosing the love I have for my dad. I am loosing intrest at school. I am getting depressed. And most importantly. The person that I would go to in this situation,,,is the situation. Now I don't want answers like, show him you can do better, or talk to him.
Guys, I'm stuck. And instead of helping me up the hill, they are just adding more weight on me.
I hope you guys can help me . I feel like an idiot even trying to find someone to basically cry to. Explain my stupid problems . ..but if this works.. Puttng my problem on here , well. I'll keep on doing it as long as I can