Aquila
May 6th, 2012, 09:09 PM
Im beginning to think that theres something wrong with my mind, but first a little back story. I used to be very clear minded, happy, optomistic, but that changed around new years. A girl i liked, my best friend, rejected me, and our friendship fell out, to put it simply. Since then, I havent been the same. Most of the time im depressed, unmotivated, semi-paranoid about being abandoned or being alone my whole life. Ive been obsessed with this girl, unable to get her out of my mind. She asks me to leave her alone, but i keep texting her and bothering her, which is very uncharacteristic, i used to be rather shy and respectful. I thought a lot more about dying, and I feel a great deal of self-loathing and hatred for myself... Most of the time. But then i also have these intense mood swings. Right now, i feel fine, like i used to, silly, happy, care-free. Im almost giddy to be feeling "normal" again. Positively giddy. So.... Whats causing this? I keep hurting the people I love with these mood swings, and it needs to stop. Ayudame?