What if?

[Jhcx]

What if you had found out you had cancer, would you tell. My friend had cancer he over came it after they nearly killed him:( . Its crossed my mind that if i had cancer i wouldn't tell anyone. I suppose i would like to live im kinda afraid to die. But then there's the days I just wish tomorrow was my last day. There was that like thing on facebook which really touches my heart something like 'Boy tells his girlfriend to go home, and not to have any communications with him to see if she can last without him for 24hrs, the next day she is devastated to learn that she will never see him again that he died over night'

Why cant i see the good i do, even my counselor said i focus too much on the negative. Is there anyone else who does that? Like ive achieved a lot and i do get a great kick out of doing good for people. But then when im finished and thinking about it later it feels like its never happened. Just feel so empty. You know what just crossed my mind is that i miss being hugged. :(

Sorry if this is the wrong section

[xXoblivionXx]

I do that sometimes. I do really well on something but I don't feel the accomplishment, its as if I did nothing. But when I mess up on something little it is all I can think about. I think the only thing that makes me feel semi good about myself is when I help the less fortunate. I would go all the way to Britain to give you a hug but I have finals :/ So here is a hug through the computer screen :)

[therunaway]

Everyday I think about what it would be like to die, when I was little I was a hardcore Christian, but now, I believe in God but not like I used to, now I think of dying as seeing blackness forever, but a friend told me she heard that you die, then live another life, and the cycle continues. It was a very scary thought, no joke I went home and just cried, I was scared to death. Ha-ha, get it?