What the hell are these feelings?

[RazorTourniquet]

Well hello there guys.

I have a really strange feeling and I got it at the beggining of the winter. I feel like I'm not from this planet, that nothing is real and that whatever I do it won't really matter. It's like I'm living someone eleses life. I cut since 12, now I'm 14. When I was younger I didn't use to cut a lot. Just like 5-6 cuts in about 6 months. But now... the thought of cutting sometimes haunts me. I even have dreams about it. But sometimes I even feel disgused of it. I look at my old scars and I don't believe it was me doing it. I can't even recognise my burns. What the hell is wrong with me. :confused::confused:

[Truth]

Everything you do matters! Every thing you do proves that you are real.

When you sleep, it proves you're real. When you wake up, it proves you're real. When you made this post, it proved that you are real.

If you didn't matter, then that means I don't matter either... because everyone is equal. I know I matter, and that what I do can make me happy or sad. So you know what? You matter; even if it's only to some random guy giving you advice on a forum. =)

[RazorTourniquet]

Everything you do matters! Every thing you do proves that you are real.

When you sleep, it proves you're real. When you wake up, it proves you're real. When you made this post, it proved that you are real.

If you didn't matter, then that means I don't matter either... because everyone is equal. I know I matter, and that what I do can make me happy or sad. So you know what? You matter; even if it's only to some random guy giving you advice on a forum. =)

Thank you! You have no idea how much your answer means to me. It proves that I'm not alone. Thank you for making my day! :D