I live in a shithole

[deadpie]

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[therunaway]

I'm very sorry all this has to happen to you, and my condolences to you and your sister but for now, I would get the job, move out and pass those classes man, that's really all you can do if you don't want to be out on the street if they aren't bluffing. Again, my condolences to you.

[Destructive Impulse]

Oh fuck. I'm sorry man. God I don't know what to say except that I can maybe sorta relate to parts of this. My parents also kick me out of the house and I've also tried taking my life. they've now decided that if I don't have a job by my birthday I'm out of the house on the street. They'll sell everything I own, keep the money, let me sit on a street until I can make money and eventually get an apartment to live in.
This is also very familiar but with somehow affording college instead of getting a job

My dads also violent. Also I gotta know. Do you cut?

[Bougainvillea]

Tim, first off, I want to let you know that I'm sorry for the shitty hand you've been dealt. In all reality, there is nothing you can do about the things that have happened in the past, especially when it comes to the circumstances of your relationship with your parents. Kids remember everything, and most parents don't realize that until they've pushed their children away almost entirely. If I were you, i'd make it a goal to just get a job, and save up enough to move out. That house is not a healthy environment, and I believe a change in environment is key when it comes to shit like this. Try your best to make as close of a relationship as you can with your sister, and keep her close. You can try to improve your relationship with your parents later, but right now do your best to be the big brother that she needs. Its always good to have someone, and siblings are a blessing sometimes. I wish I still had my little sister. Its a tough feeling to live with, knowing that you don't have a good relationship with your parents, but with enough effort, you might find a little satisfaction in even the smallest amout of respect your parents show you later on in life.

You're a strong guy, Tim. You've been through so much shit, yet all I smell on you is roses. I wish I could just wipe your slate clean, but unfortunately life does not work that way. Just know that you're an amazing, smart, talented, fucking sexy guy, and you can do anything you want if you put your mind to it. You've had to deal with such a shitty life, but now its not too late to try and leave to make something for yourself. If your parents don't want to help, then fuck 'em. They're missing out on a wonderful person. But your sister won't be.

I love you, Tim. And I know a lot of other people do as well. Its kinda hard not to.

[Stronger]

First off, I'm so sorry to hear all that you've had to deal with over the years, something no kid should have to go through. Lawrence made excellent points, try and build and keep that relatonship going with your sister, just be their for her and she won't view you as some distrubed person, but as her big brother. Why your parents are telling you to get a job or get out, is pretty harsh, in this time period getting one is not easy so they should be cutting you slack. Not saying you haven't but have you tried to apply to various jobs? Also even if maybe you hate school, maybe it's best to try and pass those classes, so that you can use that, for a degree, or whatever your going for, and take that; to help you get an even better job, that which you make make a lot of money to help you get out of that house. About the house, it seems it's just too toxic for you and your sister, seems like your parents just are missing the point that they have children that the need to focus on and seem to just not care, the pain you're in. Just remember once you move out, then you can have nothing to do with your parents should thats what you choose.

I may not know you well like maybe some others do, but you seem like an awesome person, just remember you will have your siblings that you can be there for and that's all that matters. I wish you all the luck in the world, that you find the peace and comfort that you need.

[deadpie]

Thanks for all the support and advice, guys and gals. I appreciate it. Love you humans here and to answer the question;
Do you cut?

Yes.

I can't really say much more because I haven't taken up the advice as much as I wish I could, but I am trying. It's at least some amount of effort.

[Angel Androgynous]

Everything has been already said, so I can't add much more, but you know what? You've gotten this far, and you can and I believe you will get further. Be the best that you can be, get close to your sister, get out of that place. I'm rooting for you, we are all rooting for you, and when you climb that mountain we'll be waiting with flowers and pie.