RIP Dad

[CrazyFor1D]

The main reason i am depressed is because last year my dad killed himself, I always blame myself and i think that he didnt really love me. I dont know how to deal with this, if someone could help me please? The only way i have found so far is self-harming, but i know its not something i can do forever. i have tried to stop several times but failed everytime! i was 12 when my dad died, and i just have no idea how to deal with any of this!

[xXoblivionXx]

Sorry to hear about your dad. I need you to understand that it is NOT YOUR FAULT and cutting isn't the answer. I also cut and it is probably the worst decision I have ever made. Try to go see a counselor or a therapist they tend to help a lot. You can also just talk to us :) What you really need to do is not let your emotions bottle up this can result in serious damage including the fact that you already self harm. This is a place where you can talk to people that know how you feel and release anything that may be bottled up.

[CrazyFor1D]

I always feel like therapists would judge me too much, I get way too scared of them. Last month, i told two of my close friends. They aren't very judgemental, One of my friends is a really good liar and yesterday two people at school seen all of my cuts, because we were getting changed. She managed to convince them I wasn't cutting. They really want me to stop, and i want to stop too. I just can't :(

[marcorar]

Condolences to you and your family. :( I know cutting is kind of a means for you to cope with it cause my best friend used to do it a lot after his brother died while they were playing, but it isn't your fault. I think you should keep yourself busy to help you stop. Something like painting or playing a musical instrument or going out with friends probably. Something to keep your hands and mind busy.
I know it's hard to let go and stop but there are people who are there for you always; people who want you to get better and be happy. You have your friends right there for you and even us in vt. :)
Hope you the best. :)

[marcorar]

Condolences to you and your family. :( I know cutting is kind of a means for you to cope with it cause my best friend used to do it a lot after his brother died while they were playing, but it isn't your fault. I think you should keep yourself busy to help you stop. Something like painting or playing a musical instrument or going out with friends probably. Something to keep your hands and mind busy.
I know it's hard to let go and stop but there are people who are there for you always; people who want you to get better and be happy. You have your friends right there for you and even us in vt. :)
Hope you the best. :)

[CrazyFor1D]

Thanks marcorar, I have started writing and have so far went 24 hours without cutting :) My friends have been helping me alot, and I think that this forum will help me alot. Thank you so much!

[Smeagol]

Hi, I'm so sorry to hear about your dad :hug: stay strong!

[CrazyFor1D]

Hi, I'm so sorry to hear about your dad :hug: stay strong!

Thanks it means alot!:)

[Drew5]

Keep busy and hang with friends