DarkNick
April 30th, 2012, 03:07 PM
(First of all I'm sorry that I'm writing another stupid, depressive thread that is not really something that matters)
...but I just don't get it...
I just had another huge argument with my parents...I feel so trapped. They can't understand me! All that I wanted to say to them is that I'm not doing well with my hw, though I try and that my teachers thing that I'm somehow good (I get low grades in tests though)...Anyway all I wanted to explain to my parents (especially my father) was that I don't know how will I be or what job I'm going to find in some years from now ('cause my grades as I said are not good) and my father started blaming me for that. That I have no dreams and that I think only the present.When I explained to him that more or less most of the teenagers in my school have the same mindset, he didn't believe me. I mean some of them are better than me ,some of them are worse but they don't know how or what are they going to study...(yet).
They just don't understand...not just that, everything! every single fucking thing.I feel like a lunatic. They tell me that I have low self-esteem....Well...If they keep telling me that I'm not thinking right and that I should change myself (when I say something that they don't like-not only them but some friends of mine as well)how am I supposed to be always someone with high self-esteem?
They don't understand....
And my friends are there for me, I know they are and that they love me (with their own,unique way.) but I can't always tell them my problems. They are going through tough times as well and I just want to be there for them as well...
I just can't stop crying atm...I think I'm gonna explode...(my head hurts)
I'm sorry this long,stupid full of shit thread...
(I just need a hug right now....)
...but I just don't get it...
I just had another huge argument with my parents...I feel so trapped. They can't understand me! All that I wanted to say to them is that I'm not doing well with my hw, though I try and that my teachers thing that I'm somehow good (I get low grades in tests though)...Anyway all I wanted to explain to my parents (especially my father) was that I don't know how will I be or what job I'm going to find in some years from now ('cause my grades as I said are not good) and my father started blaming me for that. That I have no dreams and that I think only the present.When I explained to him that more or less most of the teenagers in my school have the same mindset, he didn't believe me. I mean some of them are better than me ,some of them are worse but they don't know how or what are they going to study...(yet).
They just don't understand...not just that, everything! every single fucking thing.I feel like a lunatic. They tell me that I have low self-esteem....Well...If they keep telling me that I'm not thinking right and that I should change myself (when I say something that they don't like-not only them but some friends of mine as well)how am I supposed to be always someone with high self-esteem?
They don't understand....
And my friends are there for me, I know they are and that they love me (with their own,unique way.) but I can't always tell them my problems. They are going through tough times as well and I just want to be there for them as well...
I just can't stop crying atm...I think I'm gonna explode...(my head hurts)
I'm sorry this long,stupid full of shit thread...
(I just need a hug right now....)