pishon
April 29th, 2012, 07:57 PM
This may I'm finally graduating! Its been a roller coaster. The most amazing, and the worst four years so far in my life - no exaggeration. But, things in the past month have changed so much its crazy. I got accepted to a strong pre-med program in my state.
However, I'm not completely sure what I want to to do. I want to savor, and make the most out of every single day in my life, for the rest of my life.
I'm very close to my family. We always talk, we are always there for each other. However, my family has no friends or anyone here so they are completely isolated. They are planning on moving across the country to he closer to family.
I've been drifting away from all my friends. I've realized a lot of them talk bad about me, and only use me for when they need something. I've pretty much dealt with this all my life, so I'm pretty used to it. I've made some bad choices to deserve them doing that, but still, they were supposed to be my friends.
When I spend a lot of time with friends, I am truly excited to go to college, and start my life. But when I'm with my family, I see a future of having my own family, and them being around my family. Like, have a huge family, and a womderfuk life. However, the more time I'm with my family, I lose focus of what I truly want to do with my life - I'm even thinking of not going to the college to move with them and go into a different field.
The more I realize, I want to start over. Go somewhere where I don't know anyone, and work towards finding myself, and then move back home when I find focus. But I hace no idea how to do that.
Not to the college, because a lot of people I know are going. Just somewhere far away like Washington, and just take a haitus from it all.
How do I do that?
However, I'm not completely sure what I want to to do. I want to savor, and make the most out of every single day in my life, for the rest of my life.
I'm very close to my family. We always talk, we are always there for each other. However, my family has no friends or anyone here so they are completely isolated. They are planning on moving across the country to he closer to family.
I've been drifting away from all my friends. I've realized a lot of them talk bad about me, and only use me for when they need something. I've pretty much dealt with this all my life, so I'm pretty used to it. I've made some bad choices to deserve them doing that, but still, they were supposed to be my friends.
When I spend a lot of time with friends, I am truly excited to go to college, and start my life. But when I'm with my family, I see a future of having my own family, and them being around my family. Like, have a huge family, and a womderfuk life. However, the more time I'm with my family, I lose focus of what I truly want to do with my life - I'm even thinking of not going to the college to move with them and go into a different field.
The more I realize, I want to start over. Go somewhere where I don't know anyone, and work towards finding myself, and then move back home when I find focus. But I hace no idea how to do that.
Not to the college, because a lot of people I know are going. Just somewhere far away like Washington, and just take a haitus from it all.
How do I do that?