Triggers.

[Mortal Coil]

I was wondering, what triggers you guys? Also, does anyone ever look for triggers, as a sort of masochistic gesture?

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Anyway, mostly my thoughts.Going around, wandering through old memories (or thinking about future), and well, end up at same place every time.Hearing family fight, or fighting/shouting with/at them.Talking with other people sometimes, in RL, do too...even with family sometimes, but for different reasons.And just wondering, how the f*ck i got here...and eventually, end up in same place...

But well, now, i keep trying to keep my mind busy, since i can't do it, which makes me wanna scream (and i do, with damn loud music).I feel a lot worse than when i was doing it, but i keep telling myself, just a bit more....

[Desuetude]

My family mostly, just hearing them speak or move around can sometimes be massive trigger, depends on what mood im in already. Having to think about the future or hearing about it in certain ways can trigger as well. Apart from them and a few more that are weird and kind of personal not much, I don't trigger that easily it's just a shame that my biggest one I can do nothing about.

[FullyAlive]

I get triggered when I'm feeling stressed and out of control. I get triggered around food, and certain social situations. I've managed to reduce my triggers I used to have a lot more.

I can also be triggered by films, if someone cuts themselves or someone else and it's portrayed realistic enough yeah I can find myself really triggered. Some photo's are triggering same sort of thing really, showing cuts in detail.

I used to look for triggers all the time, I'd want to cut but would want to validate it first by triggering myself. I also liked to push myself a bit like what could I make myself look at before I needed to cut.

[MemoriesLost]

I usually get triggered by sound. When I feel on the edge, I just need silence. It's kinda weird....

[Ravenous1]

I get triggered by certain kinds of situations and if im alone in a quiet room i start to think about it, music helps calm me down.

[Carly011]

My triggers are when i am feeling stressed and out of control. It feels like hurting myself is the only thing i can do. Also when i have any fights with my family, thinking about the past...or about myself, feeling down or sad about myself i have so many triggers i cant even list them all....almost anything can trigger me, sometimes i resist other times i cant.

[Jet.]

Certain songs can mean something to me, but otherwise mostly just memories.

[Fractured Silhouette]

My thoughts, my family, depressing films, having conversations, being ignored, the future, seeing certain people, getting emails. A fair few things actually. My thoughts of the future are the worst.

Just ignore them with music.

[Maiden]

I get triggerd when i think about certain things, could be the past, present or future.
I often draw up different scenarios from the cause of different actions i may take
it usaly ends with something bad which just makes everything seem so pointless.

[Mutibann]

If someone is mad at me or I feel like something was my fault I'll want to punish myself.
My family is really triggering.
Before I accepted my sexuallity, I was triggered every time I thought about a girl.
I'm sure there are more but I don't want to think about them right now.

[Smeagol]

I get triggered by stressful situations, school, and just realizing that I only have 4 friends that I see once a year :/ However, I haven't stabbed myself with my fingernails in a long time, I don't want to start that again :/

[Curio Vergessenheit]

This is an interesting question. My triggers are my memories (seeing a friend die isn't very delightful), stress, anger, and my depressive episodes.
May i ask why this is something you wish to know?

[Mortal Coil]

May i ask why this is something you wish to know?

Just curious. Seeing if anyone else was triggered by the most mundane things (like a pair of earrings I saw today. I mean, they were shaped like bloody razor blades, but still...) and if I was the only one who went looking for triggers, whether to try and become desensitized or to be masochistic.

[Carly011]

Ya sometimes i look for triggers, my therapist puts it as "creating drama" she thinks its a way for me to have a reason to cut. ya know, i dont want to just cut for no reason so i go looking for or creating reasons why i need to cut.

I definitely have noticed myself looking for triggers though....your not the only one!

[love is louder]

i haven't got time to read the responses but for me i do it for two reasons.
the first thing that triggers me is when there's something in my life i cant control.

and the other is more complicated. sometimes i wind myself up and kind of trigger myself to do it like i purposely stress myself out. and other times it could be seeing something that reminds me of it...

[Curio Vergessenheit]

Just curious. Seeing if anyone else was triggered by the most mundane things (like a pair of earrings I saw today. I mean, they were shaped like bloody razor blades, but still...) and if I was the only one who went looking for triggers, whether to try and become desensitized or to be masochistic.

Thank you for telling me. This actually stimulated thought for me. I hadn't thought about it before, but this thread made me realize I have repeating patterns of a "trigger".

[josh_varnadoe1]

Racing thoughts trigger mine. I have so much going on in my brain, that I can't think straight and sometimes cut myself with and without knowing that I am... if that makes sense...

Depression, grief, just really horrible emotions and it has to be something majorly bad for me to go to such lengths.

- Josh

[Ambrosia]

Massive mood swings trigger me often. If I get into huge fight where I feel helpless, I want to cut. More often than less I get so angry that I don't know what else to do. I get frustrated, mad, sad, all together, and the only thing I can think of is hurting myself to release the emotions that pretty much build up in my stomach.

[LucasRobert0897]

Being left out, or ignored is a big one for me. And yes, I too go looking for reasons to cut. A reason to make myself feel better. Almost as if I don't deserve to cut otherwise. I admit that I dramstise it for myself but it does make me feel better. Until the next day. Its not fake.

[Bath]

Seeing pictures of injuries can trigger me, depending on my mood. If I feel pretty stable, I usually can handle it, but if I'm a bit unstable at the time, it can make me really want to hurt myself.

Seeing things like knives, razors, fire, needles, and a bunch of other harmful shit can trigger me too. I don't even need to necessarily feel unhappy, but just because the instrument is there I feel I need to play it.

[maramara]

Hmm, triggers.
Hospitals. Loneliness. My parents. Being controlled. Being screamed at. Feeling worthless. Feeling left out. Those are the biggest ones, I think.

[Roses_Are_Yellow]

My family,friends, or when I'm just stressed out.

I had an issue with all three last night, and I almost gave in after over a year of not doing so. :/ I couldn't breath at all, and I wanted to cry so badly but I didn't want to, and I wanted to just reach in to the drawer I hide all if the things I used to cut myself with. It was almost as if was standing at the edge of a cliff, getting ready to jump off. But after focusing on my breathing for a few minutes, I calmed down and decided not to open the drawer.. :/

[painful paradice]

my family, school, a stressful day, when the voices in my head are being overly annoying, when people yell at me, when I'm upset for no reason, my bi-polar random depression, or just when I've done it recently and I really need to do it again
and maybe.