Post Passing of my Nan

[Stronger]

So since, my nan pasted Monday evening, somethings have still been bothering. Like I remember when my mom was trying to calm her down, she told my mom, she was very afraid, meaning of dying. I just can't shake past it, cause now that she is gone, it's like I wonder what she thought just prior of dying, if that makes sense. The whole experience was hard on all of us, but anyway, on that first day when I saw her, she said let me give you a kiss and gave me lots of kisses lol, but as they increased her meds, things changed(Yes, I know it's not her fault) like she was so shaken up and nervous, that she kept holding onto this bar on her bed, and she actually broke it, and everytime we tried to tell her, don't be afraid, everything will be ok, she simply said "ok" but the way she said it, just hits you and gets you depressed, and just seeing her was hard. I'm glad she's not suffering but how can, I get past this, just seeing her like that, replying it over and over gets me depressed.

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Sorry about the loss at least she is not suffering and is in a better place. :(

[Stronger]

Sorry about the loss at least she is not suffering and is in a better place. :(

Thank you and true.

[Thunduhbuhlt]

I bet it was just the medications. A lot of those pills have very harsh side effects like hallucinations, anxiety, and more. I know how scary that must have been for you, to see your grandma laying there, dying, and acting like that. I would just let it pass. Or you could look into the medications and see if the side effects are something similar to what she had. That is really the only advice I can give you.

If you need to talk about it, come find me, okay? :)

[Stronger]

I bet it was just the medications. A lot of those pills have very harsh side effects like hallucinations, anxiety, and more. I know how scary that must have been for you, to see your grandma laying there, dying, and acting like that. I would just let it pass. Or you could look into the medications and see if the side effects are something similar to what she had. That is really the only advice I can give you.

If you need to talk about it, come find me, okay? :)

I know it was the meds as I said that, but the whole thing was just terrible, but thanks I will.

[Cicero]

It's gonna be very hard, tbh. You might forgot a lot of it as the years go on, but I think your gonna think a lot about it because it was so recent, it'll take time. I think that it was both a good thing you saw her in the final moments at the hospital, but it could've hurt you. When my grandma died, my mom didn't take me cause I know it would've traumatized me. Just remember the fun memories you have, whenever you have a scary image in your mind. Try to take your mind off of it by thinking of a fun memory :)
But I really wish I could've said one last good bye to my grandma.

[Mortal Coil]

Getting over her will be tough, but I promise you that it will happen. I can honestly say that time eases the pain. She's in a better place now, with her brother.
She wouldn't have wanted you to be so depressed :hug:

[Stronger]

Thanks guys, that helped :hug:

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