So Ignorant!

[xXoblivionXx]

I have been so ignorant, so stupid, and so stubborn! I want to get help, I want to stop. I know the consequences and all of the shit that I will have to go through if I don't but I can't stop. Cutting makes me feel good it gives me another reason to live. But I am letting everyone down and I feel disconnected with the rest of the world. I WANT TO STOP, I WANT TO CHANGE. I need to really want it otherwise all hell is going to break loose. I REALLY NEED TO FIX THIS OR MY COUNSELOR IS GOING TO TELL MY PARENTS AND MAKE ME SEE A SPECIALIST! :(

[StoppingTime]

You'll get through this, you can. Don't think like that just because you made a mistake. That's part of healing.
Having slip ups, not only is it fine and normal in these kinds of situations, it will help you.
It's good that you've admitted that you really do want to change, and eventually, stop completely.
Self harm does make people feel good, in one way or another, that's nothing to be ashamed of. However, as you know, there are better ways, and you've already started trying other things.

If you were ignorant, you'd never admit there was a problem, and say it was impossible to stop. But that isn't what you did. You are trying. If you were stubborn and stupid, you'd say that this is the only way you can release everything, and never get help. But you are getting help, and finding alternative methods.

You are on the road to recovery. It's not going to happen in a day, and that's fine! It doesn't need to.

Good luck, and you've always got us here too. :hug:

[xXoblivionXx]

Thanks Steven :) People have been trying to help me but it is up to me to change and make things right. Thanks for the support!