well i'm a week clean and a friend knows.. semi positive week :L

[ApresMidi]

Sorry if this is horrific grammer/spelling,on a ds and actually so tired,the keyboard is blurring.


Yeah so one week clean,woo!
Urge are returning,however my unorthodox plan has been to eat them away..Dont hate on me for it,I'm apparently too skinny anyway so...;) I'm munching when i need o cut;) works well aside from the whole kitchen bit,fridge being next to the knives...,storing food in my room now ;P

Oh and yeh,a kind of friend knows. Had to do presentations and hers was on SH -.-

Nearly ran out of the room,i dont need MORE triggers...
So,yeah,she gets it.Been in a family with domestic abuse and witessed anorexia ,and hints she cuts,not so sure ...

Anyway ,I said something narky at the end of thelesson under my breath like 'you forgot to say about how god-damn addictive it is' and she heard..It wasnt toooo bad,think she was surprised,but recovered remarkablely quickly and shes not the sort to judge.
Im glad its her,shes v.sweet and defo not bitchy/spill secrets type.
So yeah.

If only things were goings so well with 'les parents'.
Ugh.
Its so tiring putting up with my mother,everytime she opens her mouth to me,i end up upset/shaken/hurt.
Turned into one of the people I never understood and now prefer school to home.

Looking to board for 6th form:)

[Desuetude]

One week, that really is an achievement to be proud of!
Have you talked to your friend about it? Maybe she could give you some support with this and if she is stuggling as well you could help her? It's always nicer to know that you're not alone and you have someone to fall back on if needed. I'm glad you might have found someone though, everyone should have a friend in real life or someone in real life who they are able to talk and open up to.
The eating is a lot better than cutting. Just try and make sure that it's not too much junk and that you try to keep to healthy foods and a little excersize if possible. Well done for finding an alternative though. Just remember, don't become absolutely dependant on it because that, as you know, is when things start to get bad.
I know what it's like prefering school to home. All I can say is try to stay out of her way, it's hard yes but there is no other advice i can give. Also maybe try staying out of the house a little more, it could give you both a little time and space to cool down.
You really are doing so well though, keep it up!

[TeddyBearRock]

Good job, even one week is a challene for some people, and its good you have someone to talk about with it and if your mums annoys you just go up to your room or go out and ignore her