Rock Bottom...

[LoveMe_HateMe]

The last time I cut must've been about 3/4 months ago I guess, maybe longer, I don't know - I don't keep track of it... But it doesn't seem to be helping, it seems to jut make me feel worse by not doing. I feel worse now, not cutting than when I did when I was cutting. I feel so, so out of element, so lost. I guess I just want that feeling of safety back, that comfort.

I thought I'd hit rock bottom - a year ago, now I know that was nothing. I'd give anything to go back to thinking that, that was rock bottom. Not this.

I don't know how long I can last like this, I'm scared that if I try and resist it much longer I'll just lose it completely and go too far. I can't even make my own decisions any more. I'm so lost. So confused. I don't know what to do.

Someone tell me what to do?!

[Truth]

The last time I cut must've been about 3/4 months ago I guess, maybe longer, I don't know - I don't keep track of it... But it doesn't seem to be helping, it seems to jut make me feel worse by not doing. I feel worse now, not cutting than when I did when I was cutting. I feel so, so out of element, so lost. I guess I just want that feeling of safety back, that comfort.

I thought I'd hit rock bottom - a year ago, now I know that was nothing. I'd give anything to go back to thinking that, that was rock bottom. Not this.

I don't know how long I can last like this, I'm scared that if I try and resist it much longer I'll just lose it completely and go too far. I can't even make my own decisions any more. I'm so lost. So confused. I don't know what to do.

Someone tell me what to do?! I'll tell you something... don't cut yourself. If you have come this far, you should know that you can keep going. If you cut it's only going to make this struggle happen over and over instead of once.