CherryQ
April 24th, 2012, 08:20 PM
My boyfriend and I broke up a month ago. He had struggled with self harm for years. When we were together, he said he wouldn't cut because he knew it'd hurt me too. After our relationship started going bad, I started cutting. I'd done some self harm years ago (bruising myself, stabbing with pencils) but never cut. I didn't tell him.
Then after a couple months of that we broke up. He was the one who wanted to break up. But he said he still cared for me as a friend and didn't want me gone. But I was hurt and still loved him and couldn't handle being friends. Also, I got angry at him for not coming to me with the truth.
I apologized a couple weeks later and said we could be friends. Since then I've said hi sometimes. He'll say hi but nothing more. He'll barely look at me. I don't understand at all. And I desperately need a friend but don't have one. I'm so hurt. . . and the cutting is getting more frequent and cuts are getting deeper and I can't stop. . . .
Then after a couple months of that we broke up. He was the one who wanted to break up. But he said he still cared for me as a friend and didn't want me gone. But I was hurt and still loved him and couldn't handle being friends. Also, I got angry at him for not coming to me with the truth.
I apologized a couple weeks later and said we could be friends. Since then I've said hi sometimes. He'll say hi but nothing more. He'll barely look at me. I don't understand at all. And I desperately need a friend but don't have one. I'm so hurt. . . and the cutting is getting more frequent and cuts are getting deeper and I can't stop. . . .