Honestly, I should be dead.

[AppealToReason]

Seriously.
For the longest time now, all I can do it still pills for my own personal benefit. I'm in such a sick fucking cycle. I tell myself it's okay because the people I take from are the people that should have protected me when I was younger but failed to, but that's bullshit. I can't stop. At this point, I'm just waiting for my liver to shut down. I haven't SH for a while, but I've thought about it often. It may work as a distraction for me.
7 months. Seven months and I'll legally be allowed to leave and ruin myself far away from the people I'm supposed to leave.
Seven.Fucking.Months.

[Jupiter]

Hey Michael. I remember just the other day was it that you said that you were 100 days free and clean. That's so cool. I'm glad.

As for this part, not so much. I mean, yeah. There are gonna be some bumps in the road, and I want you to know that you are not alone. I know, you must hear this all the time. But I am always available. Please trust that I can be. If you ever need to talk, I'm just a pm away, man.

[Princess Ariel]

Hey Michael, Remember that every day you see is a gift, and you should always take it in with open arms. Easier said then done, but it never hurts to try.
Congrats on being 100 days clean of SH, it's an amazing accomplishment, and you should be proud you made this far, even if you're not that high now, you still made farther then most people can.
With all the pills you've been taking, you could be doing more damage then you think, and your liver may not be affected for months, or even years to come. If you OD too often, you could pass out and end up in the hospital, have everyone look at you in different ways.. Do you really want that? To be seen as a monster?

:hug:

If you need someone to talk to, I'm just a PM away, and i'm sure anybody else will be willing to help you.