I want to.

[kidkizzet]

I'm such a wreck and I've not a clue who I am.
I'm more than a fucking outsider, I shouldn't be fucking existing.
I'm crying my eyes out, I can't deal with any of this.
Why is cutting myself the only thing I have?
Why the fuck can't I have just one friend here for me? I wish I had a friend. I wish everyone would stop lying and pretending, I'm sick of everyone.
I'm such a fuck up too. Not that I even care about that.
I'm not going to follow my dreams am I? They're not going to seriously happen.
I can't do this.
The pain is growing worse.

I don't know. I'm so close to really fucking ending it. I really want to.

[StoppingTime]

It isn't worth ending it. You are an amazing person with a future, stuck in very hard times.

You have every right to exist, there is no reason you could give me that would make me say otherwise.
Is there anyone, even a school counselor, you could talk to? They seem useless, but trust me, they can really help you.
Even calling an anonymous hotline can help. You can get help right there, and they don't ever have to know who you are. They won't judge you, and are there to help.

As for your dreams, they are depending on you whether they happen or not. Don't let the bad people in your life bring you down, you're stronger than that. If you believe in yourself, (caution, I've got a cliche for you. :)) then there's a pretty darn good chance they'll happen.


I'm here if you ever need to talk about anything at all, and so are many many people here. Don't end your life over an event, it isn't worth it.

[Noxail]

I'm such a wreck and I've not a clue who I am.
I'm more than a fucking outsider, I shouldn't be fucking existing.
I'm crying my eyes out, I can't deal with any of this.
Why is cutting myself the only thing I have?
Why the fuck can't I have just one friend here for me? I wish I had a friend. I wish everyone would stop lying and pretending, I'm sick of everyone.
I'm such a fuck up too. Not that I even care about that.
I'm not going to follow my dreams am I? They're not going to seriously happen.
I can't do this.
The pain is growing worse.

I don't know. I'm so close to really fucking ending it. I really want to.

I know exactly how you feel. I was there yesterday, but Steven is absolutly right, if it's a teacher, a parent, or even a hot line, talking it out can help so, so much. :hug: