camhs and depression - what should i do?

[rosey1228]

recently i went to camhs and they have said that i have depression, and a bunch of other problems, they gave me a number for there crisis team, and everything. but my thoughts are mega suicidal and i feel so out of control, like all the time. i can barley get up in the mornings- and i dont know what to do, i also self injure and thats getting deeper and more harder to control the bleeding. i have started to take medicine for the sake of it, and alcohol and i just feel really out of control, i can concentrate at school. i dont know what to do?
should i tell them ? i can just about make it in to school, but i feel so down. i dont think i have the courage to ring the crisis people ? what should i do?

[Desuetude]

Call them. It's better to do something now while you can. They gave you that number for times like this, they can probably help you more than any of us can because they can actually reach you and give you support in real life. Now is the time to actually reach out to someone and let them in.
It might seem a little daunting and scary at first but things should turn out for the best, you deserve to be rid of this and although it takes time and effort, they can help. Please think about phoning.