MemoriesLost
April 22nd, 2012, 08:48 AM
Nightmares
Once, deep in the night when I lay down to sleep,
My mind went to fill with dark things that creep,
Fear filled all my veins as I found no way out,
And no one turned back to my terror-filled shout.
The black and white walls were enclosing me in,
I felt I was trapped by my own awful sin,
I ran through this town that I could not escape,
I screamed and I begged for myself to awake.
Tears welled in my eyes as the pain still did grow,
This mysterious world had too much to show,
I felt my mind fray as I ran past such frights,
I would do anything to forget these sights.
I don't understand how I came to this place,
I do not yet know what I am still to face,
I know in my gut I am still safe in bed,
But what if this world can be stained by my red?
I will myself to leave this horrific rest,
I know that this place is a crime to the blessed,
But all that I manage to do is just cry,
It would be a pleasure if I could just die.
I see creatures plunge knives into their own friends,
I see monsters send others to their dark ends,
I see too much murder, and rape, and death,
I wonder if here I will breathe my last breath.
I want the morning to come back to me fast,
I do not want this black night to be my last,
And then I see the white floors covered in blood,
And feel the pain in my head begin to flood.
I have lost this sleep battle against my guilt,
It has made my sweet dream-world begin to tilt,
I snap into wake with a large jolt of fear,
I am so relieved that I shed one more tear.
Scars
Tears fall down like a rainstorm
As I see through the past,
I think about the flesh torn,
And how the marks will last.
I remember the blood spilled,
I still can feel the pain,
And my heart instantly stilled,
It took over my brain.
My nightmares are unending,
I am stained crimson red,
The message I am sending
Is 'I'm better off dead.'
With hurt- I'm overflowing,
It's more than I can bear,
If it's joy you are showing,
I've enough pain to share.
My mind so often wanders
Into such a dark place,
I got lost in the yonder,
And I could find no trace.
The lonely shadow haunts me
Through the day and the night,
It ignores my every plea,
I can't put up a fight.
I don't know what to search for,
I don't know what to say,
I shall bleed forever more,
We shall forget the day.
Every single hour I ache
Inside my core and out,
Every second my mind breaks,
No matter how I shout.
My flower's become wilted,
In the pit of my soul,
My heart is patched and quilted,
I broke my golden bowl.
The scars I've made will not fade,
They'll never go away,
They'll remind me of the blade
That darkened all my days.
Blood
Blood has washed away my dream,
It's never coming back,
Then it tore away my seams,
And it stained my world black.
All I loved is gone and lost,
Too many tears I've shed,
I wish I'd not paid the cost,
I wish I had not bled.
My life's light has now burned out,
It's what I can't replace,
Even though I scream and shout,
My steps I can't retrace.
It is red both day an night,
There is far too much blood,
With my veins I'll always fight,
The depression will flood.
I never see the sun rise,
I'll never see it gleam,
Although it may burn one's eyes,
It's more than it may seem.
Crimson's surging through my veins,
I always feel it there,
Rushing like one hundred trains,
It's more than I can bear.
Nightmares loom like deadly smoke
Around my lake of life,
I feel as though I may choke
On all my pain and strife.
I don't think I have a heart
Inside my hallowed chest,
My soul has been torn apart,
It never will be blessed.
Maybe there's a place somewhere
Where I don't need to cry,
Here I'll never have to care,
For I will never die.
All the words that I've set free
Made a tale I let flood,
It's a story you must see;
My scribes are about blood.
Hallucinate
Things are moving here and there
In the bright blue moonlight,
Nobody else seems to care,
Nobody tries to fight.
Don't they know what's happening?
Don't they want it to stop?
The frights that these horrors bring
Are making my heart drop.
I do not know what this means,
I do not understand,
I wish I'd forget these scenes,
I pray you'll lend a hand.
Bodies rot before my eyes,
Fear fills me head to toe,
This new place I so despise,
So much I cannot show.
I let a scream leave my lips,
A shriek so high and shrill,
I collapse as the world tips;
They're going for the kill.
All the light has gone away,
Now we are all in black,
There is no end to this day,
There is no going back.
People think I've lost my mind,
They think that I need help,
But there's no help I can find,
Although I call and yelp.
Now my friends are bleeding out,
And now I am alone,
What on Earth is this about;
When will the light be shone?
Wait, it's going back again,
This is where I belong,
Now I no longer feel pain,
Those visions were all wrong.
Left In Dark
Guilt is taking over hope,
My life is growing dull,
I've forgotten how to cope,
My heart's no longer full.
Maybe if I close my eyes
I'll find some hidden way,
I won't be consumed by lies,
I'll find out what to say.
Even though there is no light,
I'm sure I'll find some source,
I will never end this fight,
My voice won't become hoarse.
There is some escape I'll find,
I will not be a slave,
I swear that I'll keep my mind,
And that I can be saved.
I am not an empty shell,
No matter how I seem,
I will never burn in hell,
For I do have a dream.
I promise that I can fly,
I will not grow a fail,
I will not let my soul die,
I can make my own trail.
Even as I cannot see
Through the dark of my life,
I know what I want to be-
A person free of strife.
I will push past all this black,
I'll push past my own wall,
I will not retrace my track,
And I will never fall.
This dark can seem very deep
Depending on the time,
But I'll find a way to sleep,
So now I end my rhyme.
Abandonment
Every time I am alone,
Each time that I feel pain,
I look for the light that's shown,
And it will shine again.
Sometimes when I look real hard
It helps me find my way,
Like a broken moonlight shard,
It can light up my day.
Other times it breaks my heart,
For it must sometimes burn,
Without light I fall apart,
And my life takes a turn.
Then I must search for my light
To relieve my soul's ache,
Without it nothing is right,
And then my mind can break.
Now I'm looking for my friend
Who let go of my hand,
But we both might reach our end,
For I just cannot stand.
Come to me; Answer my call,
I'm waiting here for you,
I do not want you to fall,
I say only what's true.
Hurry! Time is running low,
Escape won't pass us by,
Find me now so we can go,
And somewhere find the sky.
I have failed in finding you,
Only myself I hate,
But maybe you'll see the blue,
And it won't be too late.
I wish I could hear a sound
Inside the looming dark,
But I am trapped on the ground,
And I can see no spark.
Even though you left me here,
Alone and left to die,
I swear I won't shed a tear,
I swear I'll never cry.
But if you ever return
To this dark, dreary place,
Come find the one who cares,
I would kill to see your face,
Your stories you must share.
I cannot forget your song,
I still can feel your touch,
I pray you won't be too long,
For I do miss you much.
Wait, I get it, Now I see,
This is abandonment,
You have never cared for me,
My words were never sent.
Once, deep in the night when I lay down to sleep,
My mind went to fill with dark things that creep,
Fear filled all my veins as I found no way out,
And no one turned back to my terror-filled shout.
The black and white walls were enclosing me in,
I felt I was trapped by my own awful sin,
I ran through this town that I could not escape,
I screamed and I begged for myself to awake.
Tears welled in my eyes as the pain still did grow,
This mysterious world had too much to show,
I felt my mind fray as I ran past such frights,
I would do anything to forget these sights.
I don't understand how I came to this place,
I do not yet know what I am still to face,
I know in my gut I am still safe in bed,
But what if this world can be stained by my red?
I will myself to leave this horrific rest,
I know that this place is a crime to the blessed,
But all that I manage to do is just cry,
It would be a pleasure if I could just die.
I see creatures plunge knives into their own friends,
I see monsters send others to their dark ends,
I see too much murder, and rape, and death,
I wonder if here I will breathe my last breath.
I want the morning to come back to me fast,
I do not want this black night to be my last,
And then I see the white floors covered in blood,
And feel the pain in my head begin to flood.
I have lost this sleep battle against my guilt,
It has made my sweet dream-world begin to tilt,
I snap into wake with a large jolt of fear,
I am so relieved that I shed one more tear.
Scars
Tears fall down like a rainstorm
As I see through the past,
I think about the flesh torn,
And how the marks will last.
I remember the blood spilled,
I still can feel the pain,
And my heart instantly stilled,
It took over my brain.
My nightmares are unending,
I am stained crimson red,
The message I am sending
Is 'I'm better off dead.'
With hurt- I'm overflowing,
It's more than I can bear,
If it's joy you are showing,
I've enough pain to share.
My mind so often wanders
Into such a dark place,
I got lost in the yonder,
And I could find no trace.
The lonely shadow haunts me
Through the day and the night,
It ignores my every plea,
I can't put up a fight.
I don't know what to search for,
I don't know what to say,
I shall bleed forever more,
We shall forget the day.
Every single hour I ache
Inside my core and out,
Every second my mind breaks,
No matter how I shout.
My flower's become wilted,
In the pit of my soul,
My heart is patched and quilted,
I broke my golden bowl.
The scars I've made will not fade,
They'll never go away,
They'll remind me of the blade
That darkened all my days.
Blood
Blood has washed away my dream,
It's never coming back,
Then it tore away my seams,
And it stained my world black.
All I loved is gone and lost,
Too many tears I've shed,
I wish I'd not paid the cost,
I wish I had not bled.
My life's light has now burned out,
It's what I can't replace,
Even though I scream and shout,
My steps I can't retrace.
It is red both day an night,
There is far too much blood,
With my veins I'll always fight,
The depression will flood.
I never see the sun rise,
I'll never see it gleam,
Although it may burn one's eyes,
It's more than it may seem.
Crimson's surging through my veins,
I always feel it there,
Rushing like one hundred trains,
It's more than I can bear.
Nightmares loom like deadly smoke
Around my lake of life,
I feel as though I may choke
On all my pain and strife.
I don't think I have a heart
Inside my hallowed chest,
My soul has been torn apart,
It never will be blessed.
Maybe there's a place somewhere
Where I don't need to cry,
Here I'll never have to care,
For I will never die.
All the words that I've set free
Made a tale I let flood,
It's a story you must see;
My scribes are about blood.
Hallucinate
Things are moving here and there
In the bright blue moonlight,
Nobody else seems to care,
Nobody tries to fight.
Don't they know what's happening?
Don't they want it to stop?
The frights that these horrors bring
Are making my heart drop.
I do not know what this means,
I do not understand,
I wish I'd forget these scenes,
I pray you'll lend a hand.
Bodies rot before my eyes,
Fear fills me head to toe,
This new place I so despise,
So much I cannot show.
I let a scream leave my lips,
A shriek so high and shrill,
I collapse as the world tips;
They're going for the kill.
All the light has gone away,
Now we are all in black,
There is no end to this day,
There is no going back.
People think I've lost my mind,
They think that I need help,
But there's no help I can find,
Although I call and yelp.
Now my friends are bleeding out,
And now I am alone,
What on Earth is this about;
When will the light be shone?
Wait, it's going back again,
This is where I belong,
Now I no longer feel pain,
Those visions were all wrong.
Left In Dark
Guilt is taking over hope,
My life is growing dull,
I've forgotten how to cope,
My heart's no longer full.
Maybe if I close my eyes
I'll find some hidden way,
I won't be consumed by lies,
I'll find out what to say.
Even though there is no light,
I'm sure I'll find some source,
I will never end this fight,
My voice won't become hoarse.
There is some escape I'll find,
I will not be a slave,
I swear that I'll keep my mind,
And that I can be saved.
I am not an empty shell,
No matter how I seem,
I will never burn in hell,
For I do have a dream.
I promise that I can fly,
I will not grow a fail,
I will not let my soul die,
I can make my own trail.
Even as I cannot see
Through the dark of my life,
I know what I want to be-
A person free of strife.
I will push past all this black,
I'll push past my own wall,
I will not retrace my track,
And I will never fall.
This dark can seem very deep
Depending on the time,
But I'll find a way to sleep,
So now I end my rhyme.
Abandonment
Every time I am alone,
Each time that I feel pain,
I look for the light that's shown,
And it will shine again.
Sometimes when I look real hard
It helps me find my way,
Like a broken moonlight shard,
It can light up my day.
Other times it breaks my heart,
For it must sometimes burn,
Without light I fall apart,
And my life takes a turn.
Then I must search for my light
To relieve my soul's ache,
Without it nothing is right,
And then my mind can break.
Now I'm looking for my friend
Who let go of my hand,
But we both might reach our end,
For I just cannot stand.
Come to me; Answer my call,
I'm waiting here for you,
I do not want you to fall,
I say only what's true.
Hurry! Time is running low,
Escape won't pass us by,
Find me now so we can go,
And somewhere find the sky.
I have failed in finding you,
Only myself I hate,
But maybe you'll see the blue,
And it won't be too late.
I wish I could hear a sound
Inside the looming dark,
But I am trapped on the ground,
And I can see no spark.
Even though you left me here,
Alone and left to die,
I swear I won't shed a tear,
I swear I'll never cry.
But if you ever return
To this dark, dreary place,
Come find the one who cares,
I would kill to see your face,
Your stories you must share.
I cannot forget your song,
I still can feel your touch,
I pray you won't be too long,
For I do miss you much.
Wait, I get it, Now I see,
This is abandonment,
You have never cared for me,
My words were never sent.