Why do i cut?

[Maiden]

i've had a long history of various sorts of self harming, everything from biting myself burning and cutting.
but i can't seem to understand how or why it all started, whenever all cut myself nowdays a feel a relief but allso some sort of pride, i feel proud whenever i cut deeper. it feels like i've made some sort of progress, but a progress towards what?

This is something which is very anoying for me and i really feel that i need to find out how it all started. This confusion is killing me.

[Mortal Coil]

I know how you feel with the feeling of achievement. I think you cut because you need a release, and the progress is progress towards getting out of this bullshit life.
If you're really confused, you can try stopping and seeing what the biggest problem is with not cutting.

[Maiden]

I know how you feel with the feeling of achievement. I think you cut because you need a release, and the progress is progress towards getting out of this bullshit life.
If you're really confused, you can try stopping and seeing what the biggest problem is with not cutting.

i've tried quitting before, but i can't it has become a big part of who i am.
whenever i stopped doing it i just feelt worse, and it feels like it's to late for that.

[oscarlichen]

By cutting you're making no progress. You're setting yourself back more and more the deeper and harder you cut. Why do it?

[Maiden]

By cutting you're making no progress. You're setting yourself back more and more the deeper and harder you cut. Why do it?
the cutting helps me feel better, but how and why it started is what i need to find out
the feel of progress is something i really need, and i can't seem to get it from doing anything else

[Noxail]

the cutting helps me feel better, but how and why it started is what i need to find out
the feel of progress is something i really need, and i can't seem to get it from doing anything else

I'm going to go with my tried and true method. You've got to be ready to stop cutting before you can stop. If you try to quit at random, or are forced to quit, in my opinion it hurts you way more than it helps you. For some people, getting the support they need sets them up for quitting. For others, maybe mom busted your lip one time too many. Or maybe you just feel whole inside. Whatever the reason, it gives you the willpower to go on. Honestly, it sounds to me like you've go to find somthing to live for. To inspire you. You give you pure grit to get through this. Hang out with different people, start a fan-club for your favorite anime, write a series of stories, all of this sounds sappy and 'motivational' but I'm speaking from exprience. You've got to put yourself in a situation that allows you to stop your SH. I really hope I helped and idn't just ramble endlessly... Stay Open ~Holli

[Maiden]

I'm going to go with my tried and true method. You've got to be ready to stop cutting before you can stop. If you try to quit at random, or are forced to quit, in my opinion it hurts you way more than it helps you. For some people, getting the support they need sets them up for quitting. For others, maybe mom busted your lip one time too many. Or maybe you just feel whole inside. Whatever the reason, it gives you the willpower to go on. Honestly, it sounds to me like you've go to find somthing to live for. To inspire you. You give you pure grit to get through this. Hang out with different people, start a fan-club for your favorite anime, write a series of stories, all of this sounds sappy and 'motivational' but I'm speaking from exprience. You've got to put yourself in a situation that allows you to stop your SH. I really hope I helped and idn't just ramble endlessly... Stay Open ~Holli
i've tried finding something to get my mind of the sh but i just can't seem to get the feeling of achievement, it dosent matter if i manage to bench another 10 kilos or get the highest grade as a final mark, nothing seems to affect me in the way the cutting does.