I just feel so detached.

[Twistember]

I don't want to hang out with my "friends". I don't want to go to school. I don't want to go anywhere. And I don't want to talk to anyone. I feel like these feelings will never go away. I feel like I do everything wrong. I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. I don't have anyone I can share this with. No one else understands how I feel. I've been having suicidal thoughts. A few days ago, I held my breath until I became dizzy. I thought about opening up a vein with a razor blade. I thought about stealing my mother's prescription pain killers. I thought about throwing myself down the stairs to try to get someone to notice how I felt. I've become so detached from reality. I've just been living in my own little world. I wish I was different. I wish I wasn't me. I am just a confused inconsiderate ugly stupid bitch. With a pug nose. I feel like I don't deserve to be alive. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve food. I feel like I don't deserve any of the things I have. I feel like I don't deserve to be loved. I don't feel worthy of anything. My mother won't even make me a fucking appointment with a therapist. I need help. Or I am going to die.

[TeddyBearRock]

Its not good to keep your self away from people, in situations like these it pay to have a friend or just someone to talk to, Im happy to talk if you ever want to and im sure alot of other members would like to help too. If you really feel like you need to see a therapist then you need to tell your mum in a way that she understand how you feel. Just dont give up, if your mum wont help you then (i dont know who) but im sure school have a member of staff that you can talk to.

Remember im happy to help so just Pm or Vm me :)

[Noxail]

I don't want to hang out with my "friends". I don't want to go to school. I don't want to go anywhere. And I don't want to talk to anyone. I feel like these feelings will never go away. I feel like I do everything wrong. I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. I don't have anyone I can share this with. No one else understands how I feel. I've been having suicidal thoughts. A few days ago, I held my breath until I became dizzy. I thought about opening up a vein with a razor blade. I thought about stealing my mother's prescription pain killers. I thought about throwing myself down the stairs to try to get someone to notice how I felt. I've become so detached from reality. I've just been living in my own little world. I wish I was different. I wish I wasn't me. I am just a confused inconsiderate ugly stupid bitch. With a pug nose. I feel like I don't deserve to be alive. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve food. I feel like I don't deserve any of the things I have. I feel like I don't deserve to be loved. I don't feel worthy of anything. My mother won't even make me a fucking appointment with a therapist. I need help. Or I am going to die.


I can relate to you exactly. I'm in danger of failing my grade for so many missed days and so much missing work. I just want to hide myself away and tell the world to fuck it's self. I really hope we both get out of this shit. :hug:

[KodieBear]

I can relate to you exactly. I'm in danger of failing my grade for so many missed days and so much missing work. I just want to hide myself away and tell the world to fuck it's self. I really hope we both get out of this shit. :hug:

Im in the exact same situation as you!! I only have 4 weeks of school left but every morning I wake up to go to school, I lay down and feel like there's no point of trying. Even if I know that I have to go to school that day it takes so much for me to just get my but out of bed. I feel detached from reality too. My principal told me that they are going to charge me with Truancy but I'm not a truant. I hate missing school because every day I miss I'm putting one more nail in my coffin...my parents dont even understand that Im feeling so sad. They've taken me to doctors and I take a crap ton of medicines now but I still just cant do what I have to...no matter how hard I try. My mind just shuts off at the slightest thought of stress. I feel so hopeless :(

[elise]

I can really relate to you, sometimes it seems so much better to just shut yourself away from the world and stay in your own little world. But unfortunately we can't do that, coz we have to get on with life and deal with all the crap it throws at us! It's so hard I know but we have to try and get through it, try and see a school counselor or even tell a trusted teacher how you're feeling. There's also a lot of helplines who you can call and they can probably give you advice on who to see and places you can go to see a therapist or someone :) PM me if you ever need to talk :)

[Noxail]

Im in the exact same situation as you!! I only have 4 weeks of school left but every morning I wake up to go to school, I lay down and feel like there's no point of trying. Even if I know that I have to go to school that day it takes so much for me to just get my but out of bed. I feel detached from reality too. My principal told me that they are going to charge me with Truancy but I'm not a truant. I hate missing school because every day I miss I'm putting one more nail in my coffin...my parents dont even understand that Im feeling so sad. They've taken me to doctors and I take a crap ton of medicines now but I still just cant do what I have to...no matter how hard I try. My mind just shuts off at the slightest thought of stress. I feel so hopeless :(

:hug: I'm just so scared of being judged. Everyone thinks they know the bubbly girl that likes to skip school and never has her work, and honestly, I wish it were that simple. But I really can't take more of this. I feel like a failure. I'm here if you ever want to PM. I'm just happy to have someone who's in my position to talk to :yes: ~Holli