Sad as heck

[dreamer18xx]

Just venting her but I currently feel sad as hell........ who's idea was it to makes this site blue it should be a more cheery color :( sorry off topic but yeah depressed I basically have major depression but today I feel like crap like I could jump of a bridge cra**y it just stinks I wish I could get better I'm so tired of going to the doctors and still feeling the same in the end :c depressed I wish so badly I could get better already and must escape it all my mind can't take all this.

[Desuetude]

You can change the colour of the site if you go to the bottom left it says "forever blue" there is a scroll button with lots of options, there are some better colours down there I think.

I'm sorry you feel like this. I know that you just want to get out of your mind and body and be somewhere else but of course that's not an option. To "get out of my mind" I read. I don't know whether it might work for you but it's nice just geing someone else for a change imagining their thoughts and feelings.
It's better some days than others but try to distract yourself whilst you feel like this. Go for a walk or music might help. I know it wont completely change your mood but sometimes the little things can have some kind of impact which overall can change the big things.