Staring into her Blue Eyes

[marine_sniperman35]

BEFORE YOU READ THIS IS BASED OFF OF A REAL LIFE EXPERIENCE BUT I IMPROVISED A BIT MEANING SOME OF IT IS TRUE AND SOME OF IT IS FALSE.


I don't know about you but when I first fell in love it killed me. I had nothing. I find it absolutely depressing when I would think of her.
Don't you find it funny how you just wake up to what seems to be another completely ordinary and normal day and you have no idea what happens? I mean I knew I was going up there...to Breckenridge Colorado, I go up there every year. I live in Parker Colorado...only a short two hour drive...not so bad if you just stay on the highway.

I eventually woke up in the car at about 7:30 at night in downtown Breckenridge. The lights were amazing. The night life itself was amazing. A local band was setting up to play...a band that is now Goth's new superstars I AM GHOST. Their not to bad actually. We were going to meet my mom's college buddy...Mrs. Johnson and her friends the Whites. We are all the same religion (catholic...) We waited and waited in this little pizza parlor that was actually build like a log cabin. The place was getting packed. People were coming in by groups of five. I was getting clammy and clastrophobic so I decided to move out of the parlor and take a short walk around the block.

Now you see it's at moments like this when you let your gaurd down you don't know what is going to happen. When I turned the corner...I saw her. Of course I didn't know I was going to know her...but I saw her and was immediately attracted to her. I couldn't tell you why but I just let it drop. I thought to myself "ok whatever..." but when I went into the pizza place to meet up with my parents I said hi to everyone, turned around to go sit down, and of course if you know me in person it's all about making an entrance for me. Now this girl, she comes up to my shoulders so I didn't see her at the time. I basically ran right into her and realized it was the girl I had seen on the street.

It's interesting when you find yourself in these kinds of situations. You are in the most beautiful place in the world especially at night, and you some how manage to become friends with a girl you weren't even expecting to know. It's just interesting and it can be interperted a million different ways.

So I turned around and basically ran into her. "Whoa Jheeze.." I said. I did one of those stand on your tippytoes and then fall backwards moves that you see.
"Sorry..." she said.
"Ahh don't worry about it. I'm always making bizarre entrances in places like this..." I said. She sounded like she felt guilty. So anyways Mrs. Johnson comes over and introduces us and for the sake of safety I'm going to call her Alexus and her sister, Lauren. Mrs. Johnson has a son...we'll call him John.

So after I ran into her she looked at me...with the most beautiful crystal blue eyes I have ever seen in my life. (I'm not one of those guys who just wants to get layed) Oh and to add to the dramatic effect...right as I look into her eyes I can hear the guitar solo...the best one in the world being played outside. More to the irony heh?

So we sat down and had dinner. You;de be amazed at how much you get to know a person within an hour. So afterwards we all went to get crepes. (I LOVE THOSE...) I was in the back of everyone who was walking on the sidewalk thinking about her and how amazing she was. To my luck she comes and stands next to me. But I can't really remember what she said considering this is the 05-06 season.

So things kinda clicked. I mean even my dad saw something between us...which in all honesty is kind of creepy and disturbing. So the next day we meet up with them the next morning and went snowboarding. Eventually the lift opened so I decided to go take a quick warm up run while we were waiting. Yea I took the wrong lift and ended up on a black. Now knowing me and my entrances I finally get to a part where I can get speed but of course once i reach top notch speed i hit a short mogul run and she sees nothing but a big white clowd errupt from the slope. We boarded for the day. Had a lot of fun doing it to. Later that night we all went up to copper mountain, and had dinner. Talk about a beautiful night. The moon was out causing the snow to completely reflect and light everything up.

So before dinner I went outside and just sat out there. I'm a sucker for sights like that. I love them. I just sat there...and stared at the sparkeling snow. Waited for the dinner I ordered to arive at our table inside. Then she came out with me and sat at the table I was sitting at.
"Interesting entrance you made today..." she said. I laughed a little and just looked at her.
"It's all about the entrance," I said.
"What happened..?"
"Just hit a bump. Got on the wrong slope."

This is where I knew something was going on inside of me that was now officially out of my control. I was feeling something...I was falling in love. I looked at her and stared into her eyes. Oh My God I don't know if it was my mind playing tricks on me or what but I swear the moon was reflecting in them. Her hair was pressed down...you know...kinda like hat hair except this was more like beanie hair. She was so cute and so adorable...I didn't stop staring.

"What do you mean got on the wrong slope?"
"Basically I made a wrong turn and wound up on a black diamond."
"Wow..."
"It wasn't on purpose though...all my entrances are accidents..."
She laughed a little then stared up at the moon.
"It's amazing isn't it..." she said.
"What? The mountain...the moon...the snow...the people..."
She looked at me...
"Or all four..."
"I'll vote for all four..."
"Me to..." I said.

I looked her in the eyes. I stared into her beautiful blue eyes. Then she looked back up. I leaned in, brushed her hair out of her eye, and gently kissed her. She kissed me back...then we moved away...
it was perfect.

"How often do you come up...?" I asked desperately
"I try every year..." she said.

At this point the band I Am Ghost is playing a song called THIS IS HOME. I just recently found out the bands theme...about a vampire and an angel who fall in love but can't be with each other because he's a vampire from hell and she is an angel from heaven. All of their songs have someway to relate to how they spend time with each other but how they can't be together. Recently I found out that the song THIS IS HOME is concluding their journey and how the vampire had to sacrifice his love for the angel because he is condemned to hell. More irony because this comes right up my alley in the near by future.


"hey guys dinner is here..." said Mrs. Johnson when she came out. We both got up. I held the door open and walked in. We ate and talked some more but it wasn't as intimate. No one ever found out about that kiss...

Then our parents decide "hey lets go tubing" and we do so. We all had a lot of fun doing that. But I was waiting in line I asked her where she lived. She said Miami Florida. At this point my mind went "shit what did I just do to myself...what did I just do to her..."

I was mostly concerned with her...
But I dropped it for the night. I felt it was rather unnecisarry to get depressed at the moment. But I couldn't help but think that.

We went back into the lodge...
And we said our see you laters. I never say goodbye because I know I will see her again. But we said see you later. I hugged her, and her sister to make things a little less awkward. But I did.

That night I fell asleep dreaming of her and dreaming over and over again of that kiss.
One year later I returned to copper mountain with friends. I left the hotel room when everyone was sleeping and sat down in that same chair. I kept looking there wanting to see her...wanting to kiss her again but not being able to. I eventually cried. No one was out there but me...and I just cried...wanting her to to be there so badly.

I also returned to breckenridge with memories of her...returning to the exact same slope. I almost cried there to.

But being back at copper mountain.
Being back at that place and sitting in that exact same spot...it killed me. To this day people go there...people go to the pizza store...completely unaware that two kids fell madly in love with each other.

I can't help but fall asleep everynight thinking of the first time i met her...wanting to be with her...wanting her to be with me....

The full moon reminds me of her.
The slopes...remind me of her.

Later that year I snowboarded down the continental divide alone. I wasn't thinking of anything but her at that moment.

This is my love story...and it's not over. I have to stop writing this now...it is killing me on the inside. It its hurting to much because I have had to recall every memory I have had with her...
I have had to recall the Kiss
I have had to recall being with her...
I have had to recall staring into her blue eyes...

SO WHAT DID YOU THINK?
NO JUST SO I DON'T SPOIL EVERYTHING I'M NOT GOING TO TELL YOU THE MADE UP PARTS.
BUT THERE IS A PART TWO AND IF U LIKE PART 1...LET ME KNOW!!

[Bobby]

Hmm, just to start off I didn't read the whole thing, I just read the first half. I noticed some missing punctuation, and capitalization.

[Ironic Infidel In England]

I think that's pretty good, please post the next part.

[marine_sniperman35]

PART 2 *MORE MADE UP STUFF BUT I WONT TELL YOU!* :)

We returned home the next day and my life felt pointless. It felt like everything was turning to dust. Everything I drank tasted like water...everything I ate tasted like stale bread. My parents never knew that I liked her and they still don't. It took me all summer...or about 6 months in all to get over her. Then my life moved on. I began my freshman year. A year full of drama. Eventually I realized one thing about life...you cannot get over love no matter how hard you try. It is impossible.

I tried to force myself to like this one girl...but it was never the same. I talked to Alexus online every once and a while. It was not big deal...except when she told me about how scared she was for her freshman year. She said things like how she is worried she would lose her current boyfriend whom she never told me about at Breckenridge. She was scared of losing him because they aren't going to the same high school. I told her I was there for her. It was then I realized I wasn't being fair to her or myself...and I had to drop it all...just let it go. Depression and extreme seperation anxiety took in soon.

I hid it all...my parents never knew I was depressed. It wasn't extremely depressed...but I was depressed. I pretended to be someone I wasn't. I had demons to fight now believe it or not.

This all lifted up about last April actually when my mom told me we were going down to visit everyone whom I had met at Breckenridge. I had just dropped everything completely and I made myself a promise never to fall in love with her again because no matter what my dreams tell me it can't happen. Soon the day came when I finally saw her again.

Of course me and my entrances have to set in...
Actually this one wasn't so bad...I was just playing pool and I hit the cue ball out of the billiard table right as she walked in...but that was to be expected.

"Hey," she said to me. I got up and looked at her after picking up the cue ball.
"Hey...wow you've gotten taller..." and boy she did. When I first met her she came up to my shoulders...now the top of her head comes up to my eyes. Incase you were wondering I'm about 5'9".

"Yea I know," she walked over and picked up one of the poles (have no idea what they are called) and basically slaughtered me from there on. No I did not lost on purpose.

Then we all decided to go into the pool in the backyard. Well they did I just walked around it a lot. Until she decided it would be cool to push me in...and she did. God I was so glad my iPod and phone weren't in my pants. So anyways after she pushed me in...I basically went to where she was standing on the area near the shallow end outside of the pool, picked her up and threw her in. Then she got one of those foam noodles and started attacking me with it...in a playful way of course...and I eventually got one of my own and we just went at it. That was a lot of fun...

The next day we all went to a water park called Wet n' Wild (take that the way you want) and hung out. Not much to tell there.

After that we went to the beach. We stayed till dark...everyone but me and her were in the water. We took a walk about a mile away and back and made it before dark. At one point we just sat down and looked at the waves...then looked at each other.

"Why does it have to be impossible..." she said.
"What? Us?" I asked...
"Yes."
"If I knew I would tell you," I said. "It's amazing isn't it?" I asked...
"What...the sand...the water...the sunset..or the people..." she asked. I looked at her into her eyes.
"All four..." We leaned in...but there was no kiss. I just brushed her hair out of her eye...and we came so close...but there was no kiss.
"I think you can do better than me.." I said.
"What are you saying?"
"You have a boyfriend...I can't...it's not fair to any of us..."
"It doesn't matter..."
"Yes it does. We may be having a good time now but in the end this is going to cause us all pain.."
"No...your wrong..."

At this point tears were streaming down her beautiful blue eyes...and I eventually held her in my arms trying to comfort her.

"No...I'm not."
"How could you do this to me!"
"I'm sorry..."
"This can't be the end..."
"And it's not. We are still going to know each other...we are still going to talk...but moments like these...it will be rare...just know that I love you so much..."
"I love you to..."

The moon was now out and reflecting on the water. Her eyes were glowing...in the moon light just like what happened at Copper.

"Please...move on, Alexus.." I said.
"Why?"
"Because we can't be together ever..."
"Yes we can!!! We're together now!!!"
"But not for long..."
"I don't care..."

She crawled her way into my arms...and looked up at me.

"I love you so much..." she said
"I love you to...If it was my choice I would never leave you...ever..."
"If it was my choice I would come with you."
"No you wouldn't. I would stay right here with you."

The waves began to crash up on the shore. The tide was coming in. My mom called my cell phone and asked where we were. I told her just to meet us back at the hotel because our hotel was right on the beach. She said it was ok for me to stay there as long as I wanted...she was just concerned about Alexus considering Alexus wasn't hers.

The air was warm...humidity was up.

"Matt..." she said.
"Huh?"
"What would you do if I fell asleep in your arms right here?"
"Stay here and fall asleep holding you."
"Really?"
"Yes."
"Good."

Then she looked up at me. I saw the moon in her crystal blue eyes...I stared into her blue eyes...then kissed her. It wasn't making out or anything...but a light gentle calm beautiful kiss. When it was over she rested her head against my chest and fell asleep in my arms.

"I love you so much..." I said with tears coming down my face. I eventually laid down on the sand. It was actually really conftorable. But I laid there and staired up at the stars and the moon with her in my arms sleeping. I could hear her breath. I could feel her pulse. She was asleep. Dreaming her dreams...dreaming away into another reality...one in which things for once went right for her. She had it rough and me living far away and not being able to be with her was just worse for her.

I didn't fall asleep that night. I just held her in my arms. Held her so close and so tight no matter how warm it was I held her and kept her warm. At times I would just brush my fingers through her hair. About 2:30 A.M. she woke up.

"Matthew are you awake?"
"Yea."
"Why?"
"Because I don't want this night to end."
"Neither do I." She laid her head back onto the sand next to me.
"Do you remember the first time we met?" I asked.
"Yes."
"You were so cute in that beanie."

She looked at me.

"I don't want this night to end..." she said as she crawled back into my arms.

The waves were only getting higher and higher causing the water to come up to us. She rolled over on top of me and kissed me. I kissed back...then we looked at each other in the eyes.

"How are we going to keep in touch?" she asked
"AIM?"
"That works..."
"Do you have a myspace?"
"No my mom won't let me get one. She's afraid I'll get hurt or something..."
"I wouldn't let you have one either."
"Why?"
"Because your mine...and I don't want other guys staring at you. I don't care if you have a boyfriend...I'm in love with you and that's all that counts."
"Maybe someday we'll finally be together." she said. We kissed again. The moon was brighter than ever.

Then she stood up.

"Where are you going?"
"Come on!!" she said as she started running. So I ran after her and caught up with her. When I did I scooped her up holding her like a baby...one arm under her legs and one under her shoulder blade.
"So...you thought you could outrun me?"
"No...I was actually expecting you to do that."
"And now what?"
"This..." She pinched my arm and I dropped her...but she caught herself. She knew she was going to catch herself. Then she ran out into the ocean about waist high for the both of us. I ran out with her and caught her hand pulled her back at me and held her in my arms and hugged her. Then she tripped me and made me fall into the rather luke warm water. She laid on top of me. I rolled her over and got her wet to and we both kissed again (as if there is enough huh).

"If there is one memory I don't want to lose it is going to have to be this. I promise I will come back to you. I promise I will always love you. I promise we will see each other again." I said.
"I love you..." she said.

"Maybe someday we really will be together." I said gently.
"Maybe. But why worry about the future. Worry about now."
"There is nothing to worry about now."
"Exactly..." We kissed again.

We held hands and just walked the shoreline. Later we walked the town and enjoyed the night life. We never went back to the hotel till about 6 in the morning where we both could not get to sleep.

We hung out the rest of that day but every time we looked at each other we felt the same thing. Love. Two kids confirmed how much they were in love. The day after that, June 7th, was the day I left. I hugged her goodbye. I saw tears swelling in her eyes. And I whispered to her these words:
"I will see you again. I promise," and she just nodded.

"I love you so much," I said as I held her tightly to me.
"I love you to..." she said. I kissed her on the forehead and then we had to let go because our parents were coming back from the starbucks in the airport. I got to the gate, looked at her and mouthed the words "I love you. C'ya later," then got on. The flight home I cried. I sat in the back where my mom couldn't see me and just silently cried.

"Excuse me sir," asked a flight attendant.
"Yes?"
"Are you ok?" she asked. I sucked it up a bit.
"I hope..."
"Sir, I have permission to stay here and talk."
"Thank you so much...because I need someone to talk to..."

The flight attendant sat in the empty seat next to me.

"What is it..."
"I fell in love on this trip..."
"How deep?"
"To damn deep."
"What's her name?"
"Alexus..."
"How much do you love her."
"Enough to let her fall asleep with me on the beach."
"Did you pressure her?"
"No. I didn't have sex. I wasn't looking for that. But we kissed laying on the beach."
"Sir, why not just stay with her or something?"
"Because I'm not here alone."
"Family making you go back?"
"Yes. I promised her I would come back. I promised her never to stop loving her."
"You sound like someone to love sir. I hope she finds you someday.."
"So do I."

The flight attendant had to return to her normal duties. I just fell asleep and dreamed of everything that happened that night on the beach. Every word spoken and every kiss made.

It's an amazing thing love is. God certainly has a reason for letting you fall in love if you believe in him. But if there is a God or if there isn't there always is a reason for it no matter how painful and how depressing. I still dream that night over and over again. It's become repetetive and it gets more amazing every time I dream it. That night happened last month.

I miss her to death. I really have to stop writing this now. I'm sorry but this is the end of the story. It just pains me so much to recall every memory I have had with her...it hurts me so much. I promised myself I would never fall in love again...and I broke my promise.

This is my love story. This is my Lovers Requiem. This is the story of Staring into her Blue Eyes.

THERE MIGHT BE A PART 3 TO THIS NARRATIVE BUT IF THERE IS 1 THEN IT WILL BE ABOUT WHAT I HOPE TO ACHIEVE IN THE FUTURE WITH HER.

[Sapphire]

Hmm, I found this a bit difficult to read with the missing punctuation.
However, it is quite good.
Coming from me that is a real compliment as I don't really like love stories.