This. Is pain.

[Noxail]

I don't know what to do anymore. I am lost, broken, used, unnecessary. I am so sick of hearing people tell me I'm fat, I'm short, I'm stupid, I'm selfish, I'm weak, I'm overprotective, I'm a problem child, I am worthless, I am a coward, I am hateful, I am mean, I'm all air, I'm insane, I'm dramatic, I'm this, I'm that, Why? Why can't this stop? Why can't my father love me? Why can't my friends care? Why ME? Why do I have to suffer? Honestly, ending it all sounds pretty fucking good right now, sense I am invisible almost anywhere and I will not be missed. If this is the last you hear of me, I wish you well. I cannot tell you if I'll be gone tomorrow, but it's a possiblity. Please, Stay Strong ~Holli

[JackShephard]

Holli. It sounds to me like you are surrounded by terrible people. All the same, I still understand wanting to be loved and not really getting any. What your going through is immensely difficult and I know because I was in a similar situation before. People used to call me fat, and walk all over me. It really made me feel... Worthless. I felt like the only one who really cared about me was my counsellor. So I made some big changes in my life. I stopped calling my "friends" who would talk about me behind my back and I surrounded myself with friends who really give a shit. The trick is, you can't just take and not give. To gain a friendship like this, you must be as willing to support them as you would be willing to accept support from them.

What I want to say to you is, you probably don't have very nice friends right now. If they don't care, why should you care about them. Find someone who is worth while and bring them into your life. Also find things to love about yourself. This really helped keep my confidence up in my "dog days." Are you smart? Do you have nice hair? Are you good at drawing? Anything like that. I'm serious here. Don't be modest. Don't say "well I'm not good at anything" because wether you know it or not, there is something about you that is just awesome. Something that people are envious of.

Please Holli, don't do anything reckless. Even though people might not appreciate what a cool person you are, you are so young. Life is bigger than the social cliques in school. There are so many loving people out there just waiting to share their lives with you. And even me. You can message me anytime you want about anything. Sometime it just feels good to talk, even if someone is a compleate stranger. I promise I won't judge. I've been there. I know what it's like. Trust me, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. :)

[Fractured Silhouette]

Look, you seem like a really cool person. It's NOT you, it's them, you have to try and remember that. I'm sure your not any of those things, you just have to try to ignore them and find people who actually care about you.

Ending it all is not the answer. Just find something else to think of, preferably things in your life that have been good. I'm sure people would miss you, I don't even know you and I'd miss you. That's how awesome you are.

Just pointing this out, if your invisible everywhere it might be because your too ninja for people to notice you and people call you names because they are jealous of you.

Anyway, stay strong and get some help if you need it. Hope this helped.

[Smeagol]

Holli, it's not you, it's them. If they can't love you for who you are then screw them. If they can't be reasonable, it's their problem. Stay strong Holli. I know that it is hard. Things will be bad, you will be numb with pain at times, but there is light at the end of the tunnel, although you may not be able to see it now. Good luck, and I hope that you do not end your wonderful life. Although you think your father doesn't love you now, if you died he'd probably be devastated, thinking that it is his fault. ~ Maeve