It Hurts to know...

[xXoblivionXx]

I started cutting then stopped for about a month then started again. I cover up my worries with a smile but cry myself to sleep wishing I won't wake up in the morning. I'm a disappointment.

[StoppingTime]

A month is not bad at all! Congrats on that.
Has anything changed majorly in your life that caused you to start cutting again?
And have you ever been able to talk to anyone (trusted friend, therapist, counselor, etc...)?
That is always one of the best places to start when you want to recover. Just talking your life out with someone. You could try to on here, we're always listening, but it always works better when you're face to face.

And don't think of yourself as a disappointment. You are someone who, unfortunately, has had a hard past, and is looking to recover, hopefully. All you need is some help and support, and that's why we're here.

Welcome to the forums, and feel free to answer the questions on your own comfort level.

[xXoblivionXx]

Thanks. I there are two friends that I talk to that sort of help. But I feel like I encumber them. That's why I have been trying to cover up my problems with a smile. I don't want to drag them down with me. I feel so alone. Even though they are only trying to help I don't want to hurt them. I lie to them when they ask if I'm okay because I don't want them to be worried about me all the time.

[StoppingTime]

They are there to help you. It may seem like you are burdening them, but if they are truly good friends, they'll want to help you in any way they can.
Next time you see them, just go up and say, "Hey, can I talk to you guys. I haven't been having the greatest time lately..." or something along those lines.
They are there for you, and if they are true friends, they'll want to make sure that you are OK.

[xXoblivionXx]

I'm trying to stop but it is so hard. I can't concentrate at school, I haven't been eating a lot lately, I have attempted suicide before, and no one cares about me. I am a nobody. I'm a depressed, lonely, not pretty, dumb teenage girl that not a single guy cares about, I have to cut into my arm just to feel something because I have become so numb.

[Twistember]

I'm trying to stop but it is so hard. I can't concentrate at school, I haven't been eating a lot lately, I have attempted suicide before, and no one cares about me. I am a nobody. I'm a depressed, lonely, not pretty, dumb teenage girl that not a single guy cares about, I have to cut into my arm just to feel something because I have become so numb.

I just want to let you know that I feel the EXACT same way. I just posted a rage-vent about it. I thought I was alone, but I guess I'm not. I guess there actually IS somebody who understands. If you ever need anybody, feel free to message me.

[Drew5]

You could stop or dull everything numb can be good

[xXoblivionXx]

I just want to let you know that I feel the EXACT same way. I just posted a rage-vent about it. I thought I was alone, but I guess I'm not. I guess there actually IS somebody who understands. If you ever need anybody, feel free to message me.
Thank God I'm not the only one! Hopefully we will be able to help each other