Cutting to sleep/calm down?

[Fractured Silhouette]

Now I've been having this problem were I would get extremely worried, full of energy, start shaking and my thoughts start moving so fast that it became hard to comprehend anything. It was/is preventing me from sleeping at night. According to the internet and my less than extensive research into the matter I have decided that they are probably anxiety attacks. I used cutting to sleep and calm me down. Recently I have found myself cutting more than usual due to the world and feeling well... like crap. I've decided to 'cut' down (pun more than intended)* on the cutting because I don't want to start relying on it too much and the last time I cut during the attacks I accidently cut way too deep because I wasn't thinking or rather I was thinking, just not hard enough. Anyway, during these anxiety attacks I've had to do other things to focus my thoughts before I end up curled up in a ball worrying about stuff to stupid comprehend. Music works to a degree, I follow the lyrics in my head etc. So to get rid of my energy I usually pace up and down or go for a walk around my block. It's not really a problem then, but during the night, I have only music and this website to focus my wandering thoughts. I tried pacing, making a cup of tea etc, but my parents said if they catch me awake again they're going to get me 'checked'. I have an idea of what this means but I'd still rather not find out.
So this website has been good to me. It's full of nice people. But sometimes during the night I post stuff that's not entirely thought out. I'm very cautious about what I say usually, but sometimes I'm too tired or too busy worrying about other stuff to bother proof reading and such. So I say stupid stuff.
Anyway I want to apologize in advance for anything I have said or may say that seems insensitive or unhelpful.

I'm going back to cutting to calm down, at-least during the night, my body can't handle the continuous sleeplessness and every post I do I regret later and feel guilty about. Even now the only reason I said anything is because it's four in the morning and I feel full of energy. I can't handle much more weight on my conscious.

Anyone got any ideas or thoughts on this? Does anyone use cutting as a way to calm down/sleep? Or is it just me?

[Desuetude]

I'm just thinking, though you've probably already tried this, could you write down all those thoughts in your head, maybe getting them out onto paper would help?
Maybe your parents have a point, maybe seeing someone about it could help because cutting certainly isn't the way to fall asleep. It might seem hard or scary but it could be what helps you get over this.
You don't have to apoligise, most posts here arn't half decent and yours genuinely help people. You're a credit to VT with your advice and don't think that what you're saying isn't helping because i haven't seen one of your posts that are insensetive or unhelpful, they're all great.
Sometimes if I'm stressed so to calm down I cut and the reasons I do it anyway the majority of them are to calm down when I'm angry.

[Fractured Silhouette]

Oh... Thanks. But the thought of talking about any of my problems, with anyone in person. I've tried, but can't. I've been getting some help from email counselling. Getting my parents involved has never helped me, just made me feel worse.
The writing thing I've tried, but usually I'm shivering too much to write straight. I could use Word now that I think about it. Thanks for the advice.
It's scary how cutting can be used to deal with negative emotions in such an effective way.

[ApresMidi]

Yes I can relate, at least in some way. At night, my hands shake and I can't sleep - Not that I'm not tired -I am - but my mind is very alert, running round in circles etc.I doesnt really feel like a CUT urge ,but it is the only way it goes away and only appears when I don't.
Its sad really, like everyone here , I never thought it would ever be allowed to get this bad.
Personally with what to do ... I just find other little , boring things to attract my attention til I drop off, do homework, or some kind of translations etc.
Hmm. I guess cutting / urges affect everyone differently because everyone cuts for a different reason.
2 days clean btw :) <3