urges

[Ravenous1]

Ive been having urges to si, im trying really hard not to cut, ive started to scratch myself so the urges will go away is this si? And how can i stop the urges? I want to stop i havent cut since febuary and i dont want my psychiatrist know i want to si, if he founds out i want to idk what he will do.

[StoppingTime]

Jut distract yourself in any way that you can think of.
Blast some music, come on here, go jogging, talk to people. Anything that distracts you from self harm.

Also, you can try writing your feelings in a journal/diary, and reading them to your psychiatrist if you trust him. It's a great way to get your feelings out, without harming yourself in the process.
When you get an urge, just tell yourself, do I really want to ruin all my hard work for nothing?
It isn't worth it. Just tell yourself you don't need it to rule over your life, and that there are better ways to cope.

[Desuetude]

Yes scratching or any form of injuring yourself no matter how big or small is still counted as self harm.
You need to distract yourself as best you can. Try to do one thing whenever you get the urge then your brain will link not self harming with that thing, hopefully over time it should make you calmer. For example listen to a certain song or tap a tune with your fingers.
Maybe it's best to tell your psychiatrist though, he could help you overcome this. You dont have to be alone in this.

[Ravenous1]

I really dont want to tell him, i distract myself but i get bored real easy, music helps me. So ive been harming myself without realizing it, great, now i feel guilty. I will try not to scratch myself anymore.

[StoppingTime]

Don't feel guilty. You should be proud on how long you lasted. It takes a lot to do that.

You don't deserve to suffer this on your own, and if you really trust your therapist in helping you, I'd talk to him.

[Desuetude]

I really dont want to tell him, i distract myself but i get bored real easy, music helps me. So ive been harming myself without realizing it, great, now i feel guilty. I will try not to scratch myself anymore.

Why do you not want to tell him?
It's good that you have music, try to find other ways like going for walks or playing a sport because although music is a good one you can still look for others.
It's okay, it's good that you're going to try not to now. Try the rubber band round your wrist, although not as effective it could distract you.

[Ravenous1]

I cant help feeling guilty, *sigh* i guess i will tell him, at my last visit he asked me if i wanted to self harm i said no(it was a lie) idk what he will do, i dont want my mom to find out either shes already worries about me too much. what would he say?

[kenoloor]

What's helped me the most in times where I was trying to stop was getting involved in a project. If you find something that you really love, like music or sports or some kind of art, immersing yourself in that is very powerful. It helps release that which you would normally release with self-harm. Suggestions: learn a really difficult song on an instrument; write a short story (or a series of them); make goals towards working out or exercising, etc. If you find something that is always accessible, I've found that it helped me with urges.

[Ravenous1]

Right now im trying to learn to play the piano, its really hard. My mom told me i have an appointment with with my psychiatrist tommorow.

[Rage of the Menace]

Distraction is the best way especially if you get bored like me (Aggressive Narcissist) try music, research, reading, homework, socialising, movies, series etc.

And i'd speak to my psychiatrist or therapist they usually provide a lot of comfort.

[Ravenous1]

I see my psychaitrist in a little bit so i will see what he says

[Drew5]

Get an ipad

[Ravenous1]

Get an ipad

I would love to but im broke and ipads are expensive