TaylrJ
April 12th, 2012, 09:29 PM
Just to start out, I am a guy, and right now bicurious. I am 14 and I like this guy who is 13. I have liked him for 3 months now. Posting question after question on "How to Deal With Liking Him" or "Could he be gay" (you can even go through them if you want).. I don't think he is far enough into puberty to notice being gay, but I do. Since he is at the beginning of puberty he is real immature. Probably not taking a relationship seriously. I just thought we would date in the near future if I would end up being bi, which I probably will. He is moving schools at the end of this year. I just give up. He won't like me back and with him leaving, I am so depressed. I get in the weirdest moods at school too. Anxiety, depression, being anxious, and not being able to focus. He is the only thing I think about and sometimes I want him to move already so I will eventually stop liking him.. How am I going too see him when summer gets here? I am going to be even more depressed then. I think I really need help right now. Instead of loving him, I think I am more obsessed with him. I am just so sick of crying all the time and it hurts so bad. What's is weird though, no body would ever think I am like this. Mostly at school, I am normal and fit in well. But at home, away from him. I cry and lately I have been feeling like I have to puke.. What is going to be worse is knowing the last day of school may be the last time I ever see him. I really love him and don't know how I am going to be without him this summer. How can I deal with this? Thanks.