dontcare97
April 12th, 2012, 02:20 PM
My mom found out that I cut after seeing the scars on my thigh while on vacation. Damn shorts....It's funny how I have scars and burns on my arm but she didn't think THAT was self harm, But Whatever. Here's a list of shit I want her to know about. If you guys like it or have similar feelings, feel free to use it and change whatever to fit your situation. I posted this on Deviantart, I really want to spread this around.
10) This is not a fashion statement or a way to be cool. It's not a fad.
I hate when people say this. I'm not doing it to fit in anywhere, how many popular kids do you know are cutters? Why would I want to fit in with people who are seen as stupid and lame? Why would I put an unnecessary label on myself in high school? Anyone who cuts to be in the "cool" crowd or does it just to be seen as a "true" goth needs to be slapped hard. It's also not some fad like silly bands or I<3 boobies bracelets. This in not some trade-able scars that are done for shits and giggles, It's serious. Anyone who thinks other wise gives everyone else that cuts a bad name. This leads me to 9.
9) It's not for attention,
If I wanted attention, why would I go so far to hide it? If I wanted attention, why would I do it on my thigh and not my wrist? If I was doing it for attention how come I've been doing self harm for years? It's not for attention. Never.
8) Kindly shut the fuck up
You need to listen to me. This is not how YOU feel about me cutting, it's about how I feel about ME cutting and what you should do. Don't guilt me. Don't blame this or that or trivialize me cutting. That's probably why I didn't tell you in the first place. For once, let this be about ME.
7) No, you don't know.
If you understood or know how it feels, you would have been there in the beginning to stop me from feeling like I had to cut. You don't understand unless you have been in a similar situation. No, I'm not cutting because I lost my iPhone or got a C+ on a test. Please see rule 8 to see how much you know about shit and what you should do after you find out.
6) Just because I cut, doesn't mean I want to die.
This is too true. Do go jump the bridge and say this and that sine I cut. I might not be suicidal and cutting doesn't mean you are. You can commit suicide by cutting but cutting isn't committing suicide. Remember that please!
5) I don't give two shits about the kids in Africa
The first thing people love to do is this whole "Other's have it worst, be grateful!" shit. Some how by me cutting, I'm being disappreciative of the life I have. Maybe I cut so I CAN live. And also, who the fuck are you to say that Kids in Africa have it worst? Most of my problems are big and you sit here bitching about lost car keys or how your boyfriend that you known for two days didn't text back within thirty seconds. Are you doing anything to help those starving kids? Are you making the world a better place? Or are you sitting around in your American/ middle class privilege and throwing bitch fits because you couldn't see the newest Bad Girl's Club? A or B? B? Thought so. Don't try and guilt trip me when you do the same shit. It won't work.
4) Don't say just stop.
Don't you think I would have by now? do you think I love tearing the skin from my body or burning my arms? Do you think it's just that easy? If you do, you fucking hilarious. Number 3 will farther explain it.
3) It is an addiction
When you say just stop, you aren't realizing that this thing I'm doing has control. I get cravings and desires. I get the feeling that is too hard to resist. Just like any addiction, like OCD or extreme phobias.
2) Don't blame yourself
This is especially for parents and friends. Don't go bitching and whining to me about who you feel about it. (See rule 8) Sure, you probably played a role in me cutting but don't give yourself that much credit. You have nothing to do with me and if you really cared so much about me, you wouldn't make this about you
1) I still love you
Just because I did this doesn't mean I don't love you. Don't think that ever. I'm telling you all this shit because I love you.
10) This is not a fashion statement or a way to be cool. It's not a fad.
I hate when people say this. I'm not doing it to fit in anywhere, how many popular kids do you know are cutters? Why would I want to fit in with people who are seen as stupid and lame? Why would I put an unnecessary label on myself in high school? Anyone who cuts to be in the "cool" crowd or does it just to be seen as a "true" goth needs to be slapped hard. It's also not some fad like silly bands or I<3 boobies bracelets. This in not some trade-able scars that are done for shits and giggles, It's serious. Anyone who thinks other wise gives everyone else that cuts a bad name. This leads me to 9.
9) It's not for attention,
If I wanted attention, why would I go so far to hide it? If I wanted attention, why would I do it on my thigh and not my wrist? If I was doing it for attention how come I've been doing self harm for years? It's not for attention. Never.
8) Kindly shut the fuck up
You need to listen to me. This is not how YOU feel about me cutting, it's about how I feel about ME cutting and what you should do. Don't guilt me. Don't blame this or that or trivialize me cutting. That's probably why I didn't tell you in the first place. For once, let this be about ME.
7) No, you don't know.
If you understood or know how it feels, you would have been there in the beginning to stop me from feeling like I had to cut. You don't understand unless you have been in a similar situation. No, I'm not cutting because I lost my iPhone or got a C+ on a test. Please see rule 8 to see how much you know about shit and what you should do after you find out.
6) Just because I cut, doesn't mean I want to die.
This is too true. Do go jump the bridge and say this and that sine I cut. I might not be suicidal and cutting doesn't mean you are. You can commit suicide by cutting but cutting isn't committing suicide. Remember that please!
5) I don't give two shits about the kids in Africa
The first thing people love to do is this whole "Other's have it worst, be grateful!" shit. Some how by me cutting, I'm being disappreciative of the life I have. Maybe I cut so I CAN live. And also, who the fuck are you to say that Kids in Africa have it worst? Most of my problems are big and you sit here bitching about lost car keys or how your boyfriend that you known for two days didn't text back within thirty seconds. Are you doing anything to help those starving kids? Are you making the world a better place? Or are you sitting around in your American/ middle class privilege and throwing bitch fits because you couldn't see the newest Bad Girl's Club? A or B? B? Thought so. Don't try and guilt trip me when you do the same shit. It won't work.
4) Don't say just stop.
Don't you think I would have by now? do you think I love tearing the skin from my body or burning my arms? Do you think it's just that easy? If you do, you fucking hilarious. Number 3 will farther explain it.
3) It is an addiction
When you say just stop, you aren't realizing that this thing I'm doing has control. I get cravings and desires. I get the feeling that is too hard to resist. Just like any addiction, like OCD or extreme phobias.
2) Don't blame yourself
This is especially for parents and friends. Don't go bitching and whining to me about who you feel about it. (See rule 8) Sure, you probably played a role in me cutting but don't give yourself that much credit. You have nothing to do with me and if you really cared so much about me, you wouldn't make this about you
1) I still love you
Just because I did this doesn't mean I don't love you. Don't think that ever. I'm telling you all this shit because I love you.