Four Years On.....

[moon_lit_angel]

So I guess the name of this thread gives it away..??
Maybe not....

Well its four years since I was attacked. Four years since I started self harming.
Its day 353 right now since I self harmed, almost a year.. yes its great I know but still killing me. Getting my tattoo to symbolise my self harm on Thursday (12th of April).

But I should feel great, I should feel happy, I should be moving on but I cant.


I cant get over it, I cant get rid of the feeling of guilt and horrible feelings.
I want to self harm again, I want to ruin it all...

But I have my boyfriend.. :(

[StoppingTime]

Congratulations on going almost four years! That is truly amazing, and is definitely something to be extremely proud of.

You can fight these last urges, and now that you have someone, I'm sure they'd be glad to always be there for you.

Good luck, and congratulations!

[Desuetude]

That's amazing just a few more days and a whole year would have passed. You should be so proud of yourself for getting even this far and you only have a little more to go. You have someone to talk to and that cares about you then use that to your advantage. Don't keep things to yourself or it will just make it more difficult. You can do this and what do you think there is to be guilty about?
You can make this year don't let it get to you. You deserve to get over this and people in your life want you to as well.

[moon_lit_angel]

thank you both.. I am trying. He means the world to me im afraid it'll break us up

[StoppingTime]

Just remember if you ever feel the urge, just go and talk with him about it if you feel comfortable. He would never want to see you hurt like that.

[moon_lit_angel]

thank you, got my tattoo :) https://fbcdn-sphotos-a.akamaihd.net/hphotos-ak-prn1/548135_2994148572869_1236838681_32138001_1184102932_n.jpg