Confused..

[elise]

Okay so a lot has happened in the past year, I've moved from the other side of the world, had to start school again and make friends who are all a year younger than me, I've felt like complete crap and tried to commit suicide last September but wimped out just before the second time I was going to do it and told this helpline which I really regret :| Then i had to see a psychologist, I'm now on my third one and it's no help at all, luckily I think tomorrow is the last time i have to see her because they think I'm like 100% better now and I cannot face going there anymore because honestly i think it just makes me feel worse because it brings everything back :/. I just want everyone to forget what happened last year, even though I know that's impossible :( . I feel so trapped, I feel like I'm suffocating...everyone is constantly worrying about me secretly, and the fact I tried to commit suicide just like haunts me wherever I go, i hate it. It's so tempting to just give up again but I know I can't :( I feel so helpless and I don't know what to do I don't want to go back to school next week, I can't face it. I just can't get on properly with the friends I've made, I'm so homesick :(

I just don't know what to do, I want to escape and run away :(

[Carlyle]

Being homesick is perfectly normal, everyone gets like that. I'm really sorry you had to move so far away, I've moved but never that much, and its still hard.

What has you feeling like crap though? After trying to do something like that, you should expect them to worry, a lot more people care about you than you probably think. I know its hard to go on when you miss your old life where you use to live, but at some point, sadly, you have to get use to where you live and accept it. Things can get better, you just have to give it time and be patient. Best of luck to you, hope things start going your way :)

[Fractured Silhouette]

Yea, I see where your coming from. For I too had to move from the other side of the world. Where the people are strange, the weather is hot and my accent is insulted. I miss my old home, friends, lifestyle etc. I have a new house, not nearly as good as my old one, I also have a new lifestyle, and it sucks compared to the old one. I don't think i'll ever stop missing it, but I don't feel homesick anymore. Just give it time. Acceptance is a big part of moving and when you do finally accept the place for what it is you feel better, even if it is a s***-hole.

I feel kind of hypocritical for saying this but, why don't you try to tell them the way you feel. Tell them your sick of them worrying about you, that you just want to forget. Alternatively you can go the route of just ignoring the invisible worry. Play music or something, watch videos, get some hobbies, try to get in touch with your old friends through the internet or phone, try harder to get on with your new friends and if you can't get new ones etc. The memory may always be there, but in time it will fade. You just need to try and replace it with better ones.

When you start to do things, you never know, you might start to feel less helpless. Take everything I say with a grain of salt however, for am not as wise as some others might be in the art of giving helpful advice.

[elise]

Thanks for your help :) I'm trying to accept everything and move on, just sometimes i feel so helpless and afraid of the future and everything that i'm going to have to deal with :/ it's just so tempting to give up sometimes!

[double r]

I have had that happen to me many times. What I think is try to have an new start learn an new culture and life style connect through old friends by social networking or Skype.
But It is tough and won't be easy but you have to be strong to make through.