Goodbye

[Yehudis13]

Tonight is the night. I know I haven't been posting lately, but I have been contemplating, and tonight is the night I'm leaving all morality and selflessness behind. I'm saing goodbye to all of you, because you have helped me so tremendously, but you or my family and freidns won't be hearing from me ever again. I have the knife in my hand....

[Jupiter]

Yehudis, wait one second.

Please. You do have so much to live for. You realize that you are loved! I will make a larger post. I just need you to wait for one second while I write it.

[Dimitri]

Okay, but know this...

The people you will be hurting, the friends you will leave behind, your parents and family, the lives you have touched...you will all be leaving them behind, they will never see you again and you will never see them again, is it truly worth it?

You are thinking of a permanent solution to a temporary problem hun, if you really think hat in the short time you have pent here that you have received all the help you need you are gravely mistaken my dear.

This is a community and a community that helps one another through everything. No matter what it is, we are there for one another...PM/VM me, we are all here for you and many of us have gone through the same thing that you are attempting right now.

You are sitting there, frightened and waiting, just take some time to realize how and who you will be effecting in this situation and know that we are here for you hun, anytime of the day or night, k? K...

[Yehudis13]

I just made one cut on my wrist, it is pretty deep. And right now, I'm sitting, and wallowing in my pain because you know what,mno matter what you say, I'm nothing. I don't care who I hurt anymore because right now, it may seem like I'm hurting everyone around me, but at the end of the day, everyone will benefit from me not being here.

[Jupiter]

ok, listen, yehudis.

I remember when you were a brand new member here. You and me had a lot of things to talk about. I have changed a lot since then. Please realize that it's all going to be okay eventually. It gets better.

If you kill yourself, think of all the lives you are leaving to be upset. You must think about how much you want to grow up, about how you want things to get better. They will, I promise.

Take it from me who just got through a terrible situation. I'm back on track, and ready to go. Please think about staying. We love you here.

No one will benefit from you leaving. They will mourn your loss, just like you are wallowing.

[Yehudis13]

I want to do it, but I can't. Maybe it's because I don't have the guts to do it, or maybe it's because I'm just not ready, but I know that I can't do it.

[Jupiter]

It's not that you are chicken. Maybe you are making a wise decision. I mean, think about how much of your life you have to live.

[Yehudis13]

It's not that you are chicken. Maybe you are making a wise decision. I mean, think about how much of your life you have to live.

I also remember when I was brand new here. I also have changed a lot since then, my mother started smoking who knows what and getting drunk 24/7, my dad called us, and now he is married and has a kid. And I'm just lost with no place in this world

[Jupiter]

i know what you mean.

my dad is the biggest douche. my real one that is. he owes over 75000 dollars in child support. He stops talking to me everytime we try to work out how to solve the money issue.

My mother was an alcoholic for 10 years. She quit thankfully. I hope yours will too.

[Yehudis13]

i know what you mean.

my dad is the biggest douche. my real one that is. he owes over 75000 dollars in child support. He stops talking to me everytime we try to work out how to solve the money issue.

My mother was an alcoholic for 10 years. She quit thankfully. I hope yours will too.

I don't even know or care enough anymore, I used to have a plan for how my life would turn put, but now I'm just lurking in the shadows, just a touch out of reach.

[Jupiter]

So get out of your rut. Listen girl, I've seen you pull out of pretty bad situations. I know you can do it again.

[Skeptical Bear]

I don't know how old you are but I'm sure you're pretty young. It may seem like life is beating you down but you have to not let it break you down to this point. I know it may seem like you don't deserve to live for many reasons but if you just wait, put that knife down and think about it. People do care, even if they don't show it. Deep down, they do. I don't know how many times I wanted to die and have my memory erased from the people who knew me when I was younger. I can tell you right now that I care. I'm not posting this for any other reason but to stop you from doing anything else. If you want to talk, just PM me. And I'll truly listen.

[Destructive Impulse]

Suicide is a terrible way to go and while the thought may seem really appealing all it does is hurt rhe ones you love. To take your own life is tragic and things never get so bad you have to end life for yourself.
In my short life ive been to hell and back. Ive been on the verge of death and have played with the idea of suicide ever since i can remember. Ive made multiple attempts to take away my life yet im still here today.

The most recent event was this past december when i was driving at over 80 mph towards a dead end. If i hit that wall i would not be here today. At the last minute i changed my mind and hit the brake. I had a revelation that life is to fragile and to precious to waste and the goods outway the bad even if at times it doesnt seem like that. So please dont consider giving up because while i may still be in high school i still know there are somethings you cant waste.

[Yehudis13]

So get out of your rut. Listen girl, I've seen you pull out of pretty bad situations. I know you can do it again.

I'm not able to pull out of this one though. My whole body is just scratches upon unhealed scratches, and I've never had a situation as big as this one. My life is a broked shack, and half of the nails are lost.

[Erasmus]

Don't do it, you have so much to live for!

[Jupiter]

I know that you are going through a lot. I understand that. Sometimes it feels like we are pulling along more than we get to rest. I totally understand that. It isn't fair, either. But one thing we need to understand is that life is a constant roller coaster. And along with the ups that we have, we also have downs.

[Yehudis13]

I know that you are going through a lot. I understand that. Sometimes it feels like we are pulling along more than we get to rest. I totally understand that. It isn't fair, either. But one thing we need to understand is that life is a constant roller coaster. And along with the ups that we have, we also have downs.

Im crying so fucking hard right now. I don't know what to make of anything right now. Not if I'm feeling better, not if I'm feeling fine.

[Destructive Impulse]

Ok pm me or talk to me. I've talked many people out of suicide before. Just talk to me and don't do anything drastic.

[embers]

From what it sounds like, you're having family problems.

I don't know how best to tell it to you, but life just simply doesn't end here. You're pretty young, just thrown into puberty and teenage angst, and from what it looks like you're having family problems and it certainly doesn't help at a time like this. I found out last September that my dad had been having an affair for a while, and when he promised he would break it off with that woman it transpired that he still hadn't. He was thrown out of the house not too long ago by an angry mum and there's several different things going on involving her moving out and him moving back in. It isn't good. In fact I've been pretty depressed through it all and I'm sure my brother has too, these days I feel like I'm going through the day just so I can come closer to the next time I will be drunk.

But shit works itself out, and there's absolutely no point in ending your life at this age. My brother was in that kinda phase once at your age and he laughs about it now. I'm not saying wave it off as a non-issue, what I'm saying is these ups and downs are essentially what makes teenage life and there's no point in saying "right, that's it, I'm done" when difficulty like this comes your way because you'll come out a stronger person than you were when the ordeal began.

I hope that helped somehow, and if it didn't then well, I'm not the best at helping out.

[Efflorescence]

I want to do it, but I can't. Maybe it's because I don't have the guts to do it, or maybe it's because I'm just not ready, but I know that I can't do it.

Sometimes, I chastise myself for not having the courage to end it. However, then I realize that that's a good thing because it means I still have hope left that things will get better eventually. And I hold on to that hope, and you should too, because it's what keeps us going.

Unfortunately we cannot change others if they're not willing. We cannot change their attitude or what they do to us. We can only change our attitude and how we deal with certain situations in our lives. Think of these hardships as a challenge that can make you grow stronger.

We've never talked but if you need anything, I'm ready to listen and help just like all the people who replied.