I just can't stop...

[ScarredForLife]

I have been cutting myself since i was 14. I started for a lot of reasons. My parents found out about it because I was doing it on my wrists. Well they think I stopped and so does my best friend. I told him I would. But I just can't and when I try talking to him about it, he says he's so proud of me for stopping. It makes me feel terrible so I haven't told him I still do it. I've tried stopping so many times before but I always come back to it. And I've been thinking a lot about suicide lately. So much is going wrong... I just don't know what to do anymore and I don't have anyone to talk to that understands. I don't want to kill myself but that's starting to seem like the only option anymore...

[Carly011]

Killing yourself is NOT the only option. Have you thought about therapy so that you have someone to talk to? Otherwise you know you can always talk to us because we DO understand!

I have also told my brother and parents that i stopped, but i just cant. I try but that i get overwhelemd and end up doing it again. Have you tried other things to distract yourself from the urge to cut? maybe write in a journal or something.

You can get through this, things will get better. It takes time and a lot of work but they do get better.

[FullyAlive]

I was in your position a year ago. Everyone thought I'd stopped when in reality I was contemplating suicide. What happened for me was that my mother found out, at the time it felt like the worst possible thing that could happen. But in reality it was probably the best I managed to get proper help and I think that's what you need to.

How old are you? If you're 16 or above it might be worth going to your doctor to discuss the options confidentially. If you're under 16 you'll need to have your parents informed. I know how scary this is, but if you want to get better, if you want to be able to see all the options there are in your life, you're going to need help and support.

There are lots of ways you could tell them, be it face to face, a letter, text/email , tell someone else who can tell them. Whatever seems the easier option to you. But whatever is I think you need to do it soon so you can get better.

:hug:

[Desuetude]

Don't hide from them. If they already know then you could actually get some real help, they want to help you and support you. Telling them the truth may hurt them but it's better for them to get hurt a little now than to find out you needed them and they had no idea, that hurts a lot more.
Suiside isn't going to help. Once you're gone there's no going back, no telling people you love them, no answering the questions they will most definitly have. They want to help you, you don't have to be alone feeling this.

[Carly011]

I hope you are still doing ok. We are here for you

[ScarredForLife]

Thank you all so much. It really helped a lot. I just told another friend about it who has done it before so he understands why it's hard for me to stop. he says he's going to help.

[SupaUser]

Killing yourself is easy of course, but as anyone said, IT IS NOT THE ONLY OPTION.
I had the same problem but after spending the whole Summer talking to a councilor, I was relieved. TALK TO A COUNCILOR, NOT HARM OR KILL YOURSELF.
Good Luck. ;)

[Lost997]

I know just how you feel..im sort of in the same situation including the suicide! but you need to talk to someone...tell your friend the truth if he cares he wont judge trust me if theres anything I've learned its that real friends stand by you! Suicide looks like the best option I know it takes you away from all the pain...but think about your future I know its hard and you even think there is no future but just keep a glimmer of hope that you can show the world how amazing you are and prove any one who thought otherwise wrong! if you ever need to talk feel free to pm me..I hope things get better! :) xx

[Jake Chaplin]

Suicide is not the answer my friend, i've been through that and i don't ever want to again. Also it depends what problems you're having that make you feel this way, if you want to keep them hidden that is fine. And a lot of us on this post are always here to talk to you and help :)