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Fractured Silhouette
April 7th, 2012, 02:47 PM
Right, so lately I have found it difficult to eat. I think I know why, it's because my body is too busy having anxiety attacks and producing waste adrenaline than producing acid within my stomach. This is just an educated guess. The problem is that it doesn't matter what is causing me to lose my appetite, because it clearly means that there is a problem. So i'm going to the doctors about it at some point.

I want to go, but i'm scared. For a few reasons. Mostly i'm afraid he'll figure out that i'm cutting. I'm not ready to talk about, I don't want to, but I don't want to die of stomach ulcers and such. The thing is if they determine I have anxiety, then he might start to wonder why i'm wearing a jumper etc. I just hope it's cold on the day. But if they can't get what's causing it, they might try to run tests, that might involve showing my arms. I hope there is a just a pill I can take to make it feel better. But I doubt it.

Any of you guys know what to expect? Any helpful advice? Words of wisdom? I'm freaking out here.
Carly011
April 7th, 2012, 02:55 PM
Try to force yourself to eat even if you arent hungry. Just eat something! eventually your body should start telling you when your hungry again. See your doctor if your loosing weight though.
Fractured Silhouette
April 7th, 2012, 03:22 PM
Try to force yourself to eat even if you arent hungry. Just eat something! eventually your body should start telling you when your hungry again. See your doctor if your loosing weight though.

That's the thing. I AM forcing the food down my throat. Eating stuff doesn't increase stomach acid levels, it just gets rid of the hunger pains. The food always sits very uncomfortably in my stomach afterwards. I read articles that a lack of acid can cause serious problems.
Carly011
April 7th, 2012, 03:49 PM
You really should see a doctor then. Continue trying to eat, but go see the doctor as soon as you can. that does not sound good at all! Where are your cuts? if they are on your wrists maybe wear some bracelets or sweat bands so they dont see the cuts. I know what you mean about not ready to talk about it :/ my therapist tries to get me to talk, but i wont.

I hope you feel better soon!
Fractured Silhouette
April 7th, 2012, 04:10 PM
You really should see a doctor then. Continue trying to eat, but go see the doctor as soon as you can. that does not sound good at all! Where are your cuts? if they are on your wrists maybe wear some bracelets or sweat bands so they dont see the cuts. I know what you mean about not ready to talk about it :/ my therapist tries to get me to talk, but i wont.

I hope you feel better soon!

There are no bracelets big enough. I usually cut just above the t-shirt line on my shoulders. But I was having a bad day and I couldn't be bothered to take off my jumper, so i made 12 cuts on the top of my arm. Hopefully I can get my long-sleeved t-shirts out of the wash before I go. Wouldn't look as strange then.

Yea, me too, thanks.
Carly011
April 7th, 2012, 04:13 PM
Maybe use some makeup to cover it up? Let us know how it goes