fading away

[Lost997]

I feel like cutting so deep that I'll just fade away...I've thought about suicide for a while but I've always been held back, but now I long to somehow completely wip out the pain, my addiction to cutting is unreal I can never imagine myself stopping, I feel so ashamed and angry with myself after which adds to my fustration, any ideas on how to stop?

[Desuetude]

If you want to try and stop you really have to want to. There's no point in only putting half a heart into it because that's not very likely to get you very far. So the best way to start would be throwing away any blades or anything you use to self harm.
There are a few ways in which you can try and stop. Things like the butterfly project (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=134398)may help, distracting yourself when you get urges, have a certain thing you do like have one song you listen to or a line you recite in your head and you might start to link that with not cutting, just surrounding yourself with people or talking to someone about how you feel could help. Just take it one step at a time because doing too much all in one go could prove to be to much. Just keep in mine that you can do it, be optimistic about it and that's a lot more likely to help than telling yourself you can't.

[elle8]

Yeah, I think it's really good you want to stop on your ow, because I didn't.
I only stopped because my mum found out, and I mean, I didn't want to upset her so I guess I partially stopped for that reason, but I guess the main reason was I was scared people would send me to a doctor or something and people would see me as this freak - I was terrified of that.
At first, it was just because of that, but now in retrospect, I am so glad I stopped, because it's just made life much easier. I don't know why I couldn't see that when I was cutting, but yeah.
I draw to get rid of the urges. Like, the pictures can be as twisted and weird as I want depending on my mood, but they're just pictures and you're not doing anything permanent. It's really helped (even if you're not a good artist, just scribbling anything helps!)
I've seen a lot of people get better from the butterfly project too, and being around people so you actually CAN'T cut sounds like a good idea too.
Good luck!

[Carly011]

Awwww hun, don't do that. I am sure your a wonderful person who should live!

Try using a rubber band and snapping your wrist whenever you want to cut. I have also heard about hold ice cubes in your hand helps also. Have you ever thought about therapy?

Its good that you want to stop! Thats a good step in the right direction! Keep trying, you CAN do this