life is passing

[Jupiter]

it's going by so fast. i just wish i could enjoy the time i have on this damn planet. i'm looking at how long things seemed to be in elementary school. but now, it's just..

i've been having break downs at least 3 times a week. i need help, or at least i think i do, but i just don't want it. ya know? im gonna look at these past years as the wost because my life really does suck. i mean, i have heard a lot of bad things that mine don't even compare to. but, i still just.. i need somethign to cheer me up. i swear. i just need something good in my damn life for once.

whatever, just skip over my thread like i know you want to. no body cares. no body can help. i am a lost cause. i don't even care enough to try to ask for the help. i guess posting here is kinda just posting for help, or it could just be trying to get attention. it's been so long since i even tried to help myself. i don't care, nor do i even want to. i just wanna cut. i want to die, but i don't want to kill myself. i just want to get erased. like i was never here. i don't deserve it. so many more people deserve to live than me, but they died. i just don't even care.

fuck this.

[Magus]

I read this thread in the morning and now I decided to say something.
Because you know, life doesn't go as the way you Want it to go. You feel unwanted and empty. You feel that you haven't accomplished anything, well in my case. I don't know what to do man. I am burning torn newspaper and smell the fume. We do all kind of whacky stuff. I tore my clothes. I don't. Do you feel the same?

I never tried to cut. My body feels like it doesn't have a half a pint of blood to begini with. Your heart seems like it is filled wit tears and you Want it all out Yeah, I wrote shit like this before, but nobody post it on it. Because yeah we want attention sometimes. Even if it is on a silly message board. It's good though. Nobody replied and I felt even more worse. But then I decided to posts. Because I don't want you to feel worse. Maybe you are better n ow, but I am not. Fuck this shit, man.

[Erasmus]

Hey Eric, you know that you can talk to me about anything, I'm there for you man! :)

[Jupiter]

thanks faris. it means a lot to see a cool member like you coming to the help sections. that isn't very.. common. it means a lot, it really does.

daniel, thanks so much for the offering.

[StoppingTime]

Eric, you do deserve to live, you are an amazing guy.
Now, don't compare yourself to others' lives which are far far worse than yours, because you'll only feel worse about yourself, and there's no reason for that.
You live in an entire different world, so to speak, so don't think that you are inferior to everyone else. You aren't.


I can't begin to imagine what you've had to go through, and it must seem bleak right now.
But we get one chance here, so lets make the best of it.
Things, no matter how bleak they seem, will eventually look up. You'll get your life back on track. You can do it.

You know this; cutting doesn't help. You'll feel worse in the end, and even more guilty than before.
Focus on things you enjoy when you get that urge. Immediately silence it, and tell yourself you're stronger than it. Blast some music, go on here and VK (that just goes to show how much you care about others, to do something like that by the way, and you should be very proud of yourself for it).

Your life is as valuable as anyone else's. You aren't worse or inferior. Just rise above the self doubt (wow, I'm one to talk, that's one of my biggest weaknesses...) and remember how much everyone loves you.

Don't ever feel bad about making threads like this. This is a place to get help, we come here to do just that. You deserve it just as much as everyone else here does. Sure, problems are different, some have it better than you, some worse, but that doesn't mean you don't count.

We're always here for you Eric. :hug:

[Jupiter]

thanks so much steve. it really means a lot. im so glad i have vt here for me.

[Erasmus]

Don't mention it, you know I'm always here for you! :D

[NotASpyingRent]

it's going by so fast. i just wish i could enjoy the time i have on this damn planet. i'm looking at how long things seemed to be in elementary school. but now, it's just..

i've been having break downs at least 3 times a week. i need help, or at least i think i do, but i just don't want it. ya know? im gonna look at these past years as the wost because my life really does suck. i mean, i have heard a lot of bad things that mine don't even compare to. but, i still just.. i need somethign to cheer me up. i swear. i just need something good in my damn life for once.

whatever, just skip over my thread like i know you want to. no body cares. no body can help. i am a lost cause. i don't even care enough to try to ask for the help. i guess posting here is kinda just posting for help, or it could just be trying to get attention. it's been so long since i even tried to help myself. i don't care, nor do i even want to. i just wanna cut. i want to die, but i don't want to kill myself. i just want to get erased. like i was never here. i don't deserve it. so many more people deserve to live than me, but they died. i just don't even care.

fuck this.


Okay, I am NOT just passing by this thread. I'd be a terrible person if I didn't try and help you. Seriously! People care!!!! People can help!!!!! To get help one must ask for it. I'm sorry to hear that you want to injure or possibly kill yourself. I REALLY suggest you see a counselor or a qualified professional for this. There is alot that us as VT members cannot do due to lack of knowledge or legal/confidentiality issues. If you are actually in Indiana, the state will most likely provide for you some sort of counseling treatment free of charge if need be. You should not have to worry about the ability to pay medical bills. Stay strong.