TraceOfExistance
April 6th, 2012, 01:09 AM
Before I go too much into detail with this, I want you to know that I'm going to be telling you about two different situations with being replaced...
So I recently moved to a new town at the beginning of my tenth grade year. It's about a thirty minute drive from where I used to live. The old town I used to live in is your typical little town you could say. Not much going on there. The school I went to was a typical "redneck" type of school. I never really fit into any kind of stereotype. I honestly considered myself a reject. All of my other friends could easily fit into one of the other few stereotyped groups there were. My group of friends have been together since our elementary school days, well, most of us anyway. This may sound vain, but I honestly considered myself the center of our little group.
We had our problems in middle school, what with changing classes and such, but we pulled through that fine. Still a strong group of friends. All of that changed when we got to high school... While in our last year of middle school a few of my friends started hanging out with high schoolers and really took a shine to them. So much of a shine that when we did start high school I was completely left out of everything. The world circled around them, I didn't matter anymore. What other friends I had left were in relationships and didn't have time for me. Needless to say, I was lonely. It's not easy being a lesbian in a redneck school, where people talk and point at you for being different. So when my mom and I decided to move to another town I was overjoyed.
Being overjoyed didn't last long. Normally every school gets hyped up when they get a new student. Not this one... Or at least not with me. It was a few days before I found a group of people that would accept me. I liked them, I really did, and I thought they liked me. They were okay with me being a lesbian. So about a week, we got a new girl. A "Scene" girl. They loved her to bits and pieces, and still do. That didn't bother me too much. Then I met this new fellow at a lunch thing for new students. They loved him too. So much that they gave him my spot at the lunch table and I was forced to sit at the very end. Luckily he moved.
But now it seems like the only reason I'm around is to be someone's crutch. I'm only needed when someone has something that's bothering them, or when they want to talk about one of their other "friends", cause they know that I won't tell anyone. In short: I feel used, disposable, and cast aside. Does anyone else have this problem? I've tried to seclude myself from them, but it's not like I have anyone else to hang out with. If anyone else has this problem please tell me your story and how you deal with it and feel about it. It just makes me so angry being treated like this :mad:
So I recently moved to a new town at the beginning of my tenth grade year. It's about a thirty minute drive from where I used to live. The old town I used to live in is your typical little town you could say. Not much going on there. The school I went to was a typical "redneck" type of school. I never really fit into any kind of stereotype. I honestly considered myself a reject. All of my other friends could easily fit into one of the other few stereotyped groups there were. My group of friends have been together since our elementary school days, well, most of us anyway. This may sound vain, but I honestly considered myself the center of our little group.
We had our problems in middle school, what with changing classes and such, but we pulled through that fine. Still a strong group of friends. All of that changed when we got to high school... While in our last year of middle school a few of my friends started hanging out with high schoolers and really took a shine to them. So much of a shine that when we did start high school I was completely left out of everything. The world circled around them, I didn't matter anymore. What other friends I had left were in relationships and didn't have time for me. Needless to say, I was lonely. It's not easy being a lesbian in a redneck school, where people talk and point at you for being different. So when my mom and I decided to move to another town I was overjoyed.
Being overjoyed didn't last long. Normally every school gets hyped up when they get a new student. Not this one... Or at least not with me. It was a few days before I found a group of people that would accept me. I liked them, I really did, and I thought they liked me. They were okay with me being a lesbian. So about a week, we got a new girl. A "Scene" girl. They loved her to bits and pieces, and still do. That didn't bother me too much. Then I met this new fellow at a lunch thing for new students. They loved him too. So much that they gave him my spot at the lunch table and I was forced to sit at the very end. Luckily he moved.
But now it seems like the only reason I'm around is to be someone's crutch. I'm only needed when someone has something that's bothering them, or when they want to talk about one of their other "friends", cause they know that I won't tell anyone. In short: I feel used, disposable, and cast aside. Does anyone else have this problem? I've tried to seclude myself from them, but it's not like I have anyone else to hang out with. If anyone else has this problem please tell me your story and how you deal with it and feel about it. It just makes me so angry being treated like this :mad: