TaylrJ
April 5th, 2012, 09:06 PM
I am 14, and I like this guy who is 13. It has been for a long time too, ever since January. I am almost certain he is gay. He is only in the very beginning of puberty, so it's not like he knows for sure if he is gay. But I can defiantly tell. Just his behavior. He doesn't really flirt with girls either. If he is around them, it is more like hanging out.. Others notice him being gay also. So they will joke around with him and he is alright with it. But whenever they call him gay, he blushes, gets real shy, and is just silent for a while. I don't really know if I am gay or not. I label myself as bicurious. Most likely will be bisexual. I like him so much. I am starting to question if I LOVE him.. Seeing him at school just gives me this warm feeling... Even when online on facebook. I like him so much, at night I have to hug a pillow acting like it is him. Sometimes I get real depressed when I am without him. Over time, I think he has began to notice. He acts different around me. He acts nervous when talking to me. I catch him staring at me in the halls and he will sometimes push me around and I push him back. He pushes and shoves other guys though so him doing it to me may not really be a sign of him liking me. I just thought "Well, I will just wait for us to grow up some and if I am Bi then I'll date him and let things get more serious." He is moving schools at the end of this year. Making that real difficult. Now I want to spend every moment with him. Even if he is real immature. But while with him, I want him to know I like/love him. WITHOUT telling him, because he won't take it seriously at all if I do. This feels more of like a problem. Always thinking of him and caring about him so much. I'm miserable when away from him and in a way, want it to just stop liking him and move on. What are some ways to let him know that I do? To hint it.. Just in case if he hasn't noticed me liking him. Also, what are some ways to deal with depession? Because I have been real depressed lately without him.