colz
April 3rd, 2012, 06:30 PM
Okay, so today kinda felt really off kilter to me today... first of just as a note which may help I'm pretty sure I'm 'Bi' (and I'm fine with it) and am still mostly in the 'closet' about it... most (if not all) of this stuff is completely unrelated and just coincidental this is just happening now (today) and I don't think there's been a 'leak' in my friends.
#1 today in math a friend of mine randomly turned around and said 'So you bi?' and I'm just there thinking 'WTF! What do I say?' It ended up he said that I'm in the dead middle of the room (which I am), just a mild panic attack lol XP
#2 (this one I don't mind that much and is actually pretty nice) These kids who sit at my table in chem class, for the past month have been calling me 'gay' and what not IDK why most people think I'm homophobic... go figure XP and now they're both apologizing and correcting their behavior.
#3 I was in lunch line while this guy (Didn't recognize him, might play sports) and taped my shoulder and when I turned around he raised his head and winked at me... (very creepy IDC what sexuality you are)
and these 3 events pretty much just fueled my brain into thinking about this guy that I've liked for a while and whether or not to forget about him (I know him and he knows me we're just not on normal speaking terms)... I have a good friend that might be able to help me get to know him better but IDK if I should do anything, I mean is it even worth it? I mean it is love and what not but I'm still in high school.... IDK, I'd appreciate it if you could leave some advice here for me.
#1 today in math a friend of mine randomly turned around and said 'So you bi?' and I'm just there thinking 'WTF! What do I say?' It ended up he said that I'm in the dead middle of the room (which I am), just a mild panic attack lol XP
#2 (this one I don't mind that much and is actually pretty nice) These kids who sit at my table in chem class, for the past month have been calling me 'gay' and what not IDK why most people think I'm homophobic... go figure XP and now they're both apologizing and correcting their behavior.
#3 I was in lunch line while this guy (Didn't recognize him, might play sports) and taped my shoulder and when I turned around he raised his head and winked at me... (very creepy IDC what sexuality you are)
and these 3 events pretty much just fueled my brain into thinking about this guy that I've liked for a while and whether or not to forget about him (I know him and he knows me we're just not on normal speaking terms)... I have a good friend that might be able to help me get to know him better but IDK if I should do anything, I mean is it even worth it? I mean it is love and what not but I'm still in high school.... IDK, I'd appreciate it if you could leave some advice here for me.