Depression

[CheeseChaser]

Disregard this thread.

[Stronger]

Please don't consider ending it; think about what your parents will have to go through, all that pain, would you want that? But anyway why don't you try and talk to a teacher, or a psychiatrist at school? They should have no problem and be willing to help you in any which way they can. People shouldn't reply saying "fuck off" thats not what this site is for, if that happens report them.(Not trying to Backseat Mod) I hope things get better for you, I'm sure there are people out there that do care for you. :hug:

[Extreme586]

I know how you feel. Just today after waiting to be picked up from my high school I noticed groups of people walking together, friends chatting and generally having a good time. I felt left out and I felt like a complete loner. The two people I love (who are guys btw) don't have a clue and we aren't even friends, one of which is barely on talking terms with me because I'm so socially awkward. The reason I stick around? Because tomorrows a new day.

Let me give you an example. Last week I was thinking about suicide yet again, thinking the usual social problems I have and just plane hating how I am around people. I got home, slept it off (not without thinking of ways to kill myself), and got up the next day. Everyone I knew was talking to me. I said hi to people in the hall ways instead of my usual "look away and keep walking" attitude. I smiled several times. On my way out to the bus, I saw one of my friends who asked me to go to their locker with them. On my way back inside following my friend and with a grin on my face (we were having a good time), I looked over and saw one of those guys I liked who I thought had basically forgotten about me all year since we didn't have a class together. He saw me look at him, and as I was walking away he reached across the hall and grabbed my forearm as if to say "hey you". He's cute and funny like that and it showed me he still cares and knows I exist.
Just the day before I had been planning on suicide again remember?

The point is, you need to stop focusing on all those things that are going badly in your life. I understand it hurts and your screaming on the inside, but realize some days are going to be worse than others and you just gotta keep pushing through them. I found out through experience that life is worth living if only to uncover all the surprises it has to offer. You don't know whats going to happen next and rather than holding on until you can live on your own, try getting whatever enjoyment out of life you can. Today I had a bad day, and tomorrow who knows what is going to happen but I'm going to push through and change my attitude so I can have a better day. And if short term isn't enough to change your mind, just think once your old enough, you can do whatever you want. You can pursue your career interests, be around people with the same interests, buy your own house and choose where you want to live.

On a very last note, another thing I've noticed with myself is attitude influences how my day goes and how I take things. If I have a positive attitude, people want to be around me and want to say hi to me. I can take bad things that happen to me and not let them get to me. If I'm in a bad mood like I was today, then its all downhill from their, so find a way to keep your spirits up at all times!

[WritingAuthor]

How do you know they hate you? Is that just the depression?

See someone I dont know about you but, my school has a counselor a psychiatrist the works that you can book free private sessions with during class so no one will notice your absence without your parents even knowing does your school have something like that? If so thats what its there for.