I can be depressing

[KarkatLuv]

I was trying to write some more of my novel but i couldn't think of anything, so i ended up writing this:

I’m the boy that’s always alone
I’m the boy that needs people to care
I’m the boy that people ignore
I’m the boy with a blade in his hand
Wanting to bleed but is afraid of the pain
I’m the boy getting teased for what I wear
And the colour I chose to die my hair
I’m the boy that needs to be loved
I’m the boy that feels he is worthless
I am the boy that needs help
But is denied attention
I’m the boy that wants to die
So that people don’t need to see my ugly face
I’m the boy that needs a friend
But apparently you couldn’t bother to care
So now my life has changed forever
But not for the better
I didn’t decide to move on with life
With all of you staring my way
Teasing me and calling me names
I didn’t decide to be better than you
In school, in life, or as a person
I finally got up the courage to pick up the blade
I finally got to see the beautiful shade of red
I couldn’t control my urges
Slits in skin all over my body
Bleeding to death with my first smile in years
I realize now that I was excluded
Because you were pathetic
You made my life be my prison
And in my death I was set free
Yes, I may have held the scalpel
But your actions drove it into my skin
The blood shed today is in your hands
You drove me to this decision
Now you’re spiraling downward
And I have been set free

[KarkatLuv]

not ment to be good :P all just came to me