Just venting

[Twistember]

Please excuse my language.

I wish somebody would listen
I wish somebody would notice what's going on, because I'm too scared to tell someone
I need help
I feel fat and worthless
too many tests
I just wish I didn't have to wake up anymore
why am I not worthy of his love? He's my father, he should care
my mother won't listen to me
I'm going to fucking die if I continue to keep all this in
wouldn't matter anyway, because apparently I'm a fucking bitch.
She has no reason to call me that
I was just trying to help
all I do is try, and I'm never good enough
I'm never going to be good enough. For anybody
Why can't I cry?
the tears won't come out
I don't even remember how things got this way
what the hell have I done with my life?
why the hell do they have to put so much pressure on me?
I'm not fucking perfect, why do they expect me to be just that?
I don't fucking care if she has "a difficult life", she still has no reason to call me those things
why why why why why why why why why why why FUCKING WHY

[Mirage]

Don't refer to yourself as a bitch. You are so much more, and you know it! No matter what she says, you know if it is true inside your heart. If it is not, shrug it off! Don't let it bother you. I know how you feel, I dealt with lots of crap over the past few years and you eventually just learn to shrug it off. Nobody is perfect, no matter what they do or say.

So please, PLEASE, don't blame yourself for all that is happening. That will make everything worse :( .

Good luck, and I'm sorry you're feeling this way.