starvingluv
March 25th, 2012, 02:56 PM
i am 13 i am 5'7 1/2 and when i last weighed myself,i was 178.9 pounds. before that i had gone to the doctors like a month ago and i weighed 180.6. ever since i was 12 in 7th grade i have had problems with my eating. i would try to starve myself and fail and sometimes i'll go a week or a week and a half without eating much at all. now i have started again and i havent really eaten much and i stole laxatives from safeway so ive been taking them. i havent weighed myself in like a month and a half. i just feel HUGE and i am HUGE thats why i still havent had a boyfriend and i only have like 3 really close friends to tell this stuff to. wait... nope just 2 cuz 1 of them moved to illinouis. MY LIFE SUX and i feel like the only thing i can control is my eating and some of the time i cant even control that. PLEASE dont comment saying that doing this is unhealthy and whatever cuz i already did my research and im just really happy that i can finally get my feelings out there. i usually keep all my feelings bottled up, thats why in seventh grade i used to cut myself but yea.. thats another story.