Dimentio
March 23rd, 2012, 10:58 AM
Well today was horrible, Like the worst i have ever had, We had to have group photos in school for the year book as we are leaving soon and also a single photo, The thing is, I HATE my photo being taken worse then other people and i am not the best looking and all around me people were dreading the thought of having me in a photo with them and stuff and when my name got called out with these people, I left the room bt the stress and stuff got to me so much i had an anxiety attack.
Then i was with my friend Daniel, The one i love and i pissed him off, Which makes me feel bad as it is by itself, Though at the end of school when i am normally not in he was very shocked to see me and even smiled a bit.
After lunch when i was back at school like i never normally am, I had this private chat with a teacher all lesson and well, It was bad, I talked about a few troubles in my life with her and now i might be doing Therapy with her not to sure yet, But like bringing up my past has brought out those scars and memorys.
Now another issue that went on all day was my sister is a B*tch, I need to make the clear, She only wants money, No one wants to be with her and she argues that is her talking, So all day she made my mum feel like a bad person and even made my mum thinking about ending her life, When i say "Her" I mean my sisters and my mums own life, So i been stressing all day other this and it is getting worse and worse.
The things that like my teacher fount out have and are going on in my life and just today itself, I am really struggling to cope, I won't do anything stupid but life, I can't deal with it no more, I have been hurt too much and now, Now i just want to give up, I tried my best, It was not good enough, I can't cope no more and i just am lost for what to do now.
Then i was with my friend Daniel, The one i love and i pissed him off, Which makes me feel bad as it is by itself, Though at the end of school when i am normally not in he was very shocked to see me and even smiled a bit.
After lunch when i was back at school like i never normally am, I had this private chat with a teacher all lesson and well, It was bad, I talked about a few troubles in my life with her and now i might be doing Therapy with her not to sure yet, But like bringing up my past has brought out those scars and memorys.
Now another issue that went on all day was my sister is a B*tch, I need to make the clear, She only wants money, No one wants to be with her and she argues that is her talking, So all day she made my mum feel like a bad person and even made my mum thinking about ending her life, When i say "Her" I mean my sisters and my mums own life, So i been stressing all day other this and it is getting worse and worse.
The things that like my teacher fount out have and are going on in my life and just today itself, I am really struggling to cope, I won't do anything stupid but life, I can't deal with it no more, I have been hurt too much and now, Now i just want to give up, I tried my best, It was not good enough, I can't cope no more and i just am lost for what to do now.