xhelgrindx
March 22nd, 2012, 10:30 PM
My gf got really angry at me today because I liked a picture on Facebook of someone smoking and blowing out the smoke because I thought it was cool. She told me that everyone could see that I liked it even her parents. Her parents are extremely religious and her dad is a pastor. She said i was being stupid and immature and that it was gross and not cool at all. I smoke cigars occasionally (very rarely) when I'm with my friends I never buy them. She says that I smoke to much. She thinks its very gross and disgusting and to a point I too think its gross but I think its fun to every once and awhile with my friends. Me and her dated for a year and a half and then she broke up with me in may and we were apart for five months and got back together in nov. Before we broke up she tried pot with her friend and smoked a couple of times after that and she also drank while we were apart and then after we got back together. I feel like she is really hypocritical and controlling. When we broke up I went through a really hard time and was smoking pot alot during the summer and drinking as well. I haven't since I have a little bit but not much at all. I think its fun to go out and smoke or drink a little bit everyonce and awhile. But I would be perfectly fine without doing either. But I also don't think they're that bad and i think its fine to do both everyonce and while at least drinking I could never smoke pot again in my life and be fine. She a year older then me and live two hours away. We are both religious idk I'm not as much as I used to I believe in god and jesus and about how we should act and ik some of the stuff I do I shouldn't according to the bible and such. Shes alot stronger in her faith at this time. She recently just told me that she doesn't want to have sex anymore and I'm okay with that but at the same time I want it lol =P idk. I really do want to be with her and have a christian relationship with her but at the same time I want to do all these things even if they're bad. When we broke up instead of her turning to drinking and smoking pot she turned to guys and had sex with two guys I didn't even kiss a girl when we were apart. Idk i guess that still kinda hurts me at times and she still talks to these guys and its just hard to trust that nothing is going on especially living two hours apart and not seeing her as much as I would like. She told me that she knew we would get back together. I feel like she broke up with me because she wanted to go to college and not have any restrictions and be able to do anything she wanted to do. And experiment and have sex and relationships with other guys. Then when she found out I was better then those other guys come back to me. Idk I feel used when she tells me she knew we would get back together and kinda makes me feel like shit. What do you guys think of this?? Also do you guys think she is controlling or hypocritical? Idk I love her but at the same time I feel like were so different and idk what to do and idk what i want from you guys when i type out all this stuff. Ya.