I've messed up so badly with her.

[Aquila]

Alright, this girl and I have been really close friends for a while, a couple of months ago, I admitted I had a crush on her. She was okay with it, but since she had a boyfriend, thats as far as it went. We continued being friends, but about 2ish months ago, she said she couldnt continue tolerating me having a crush on her. She said she still wanted to remain best friends, but she made it clear we couldnt have a future. I was devistated, obviously, and got clingy to her, I was afraid that I was going to lose the best friend ive ever had. She's never been one for clinginess, and this drove her away even more. I pretty much lost it, I tried doing sweet things for her, focusing a lot of attention on her, but eventually she said she couldnt trust me anymore, and that she was uncomfortable even being with me. Everything they say not to do if youve messed up a friendship I did, i was selfish, i sent her tons of messages, I didnt respect her space. She used to text me everyday, tell me she loved me, but now nothing. She hates to even look at me. I know I sound like a terrible person, but I cant help it. Shes my best friend, the closest person to me. I want to fix things, not only so we can be close, but because everytime i look at her, and see her avoid me, it hurts. I hate myself more and more everyday because of it. Ive been depressed for months and I just cant take it. She says im obsessed with her, maybe i was, maybe I am. But i really need my friend back. I dont know what to do anymore. Help.

[Skeptical Bear]

I'm sorry about your situation. You didn't do anything wrong though. You simply got something off your chest that you thought your best friend would take kindly. To be honest, she sounds like the bad friend because she would've put that aside and kept her friendship with you as it was before. And don't blame your self for being clingy. Many people would've done the same (Including me) thing if they thought they were going to lose someone they love. It seems to me you tried your best to keep the friendship alive and no one is to blame. I think you should give your friend some space for a while and then talk to her. When you do talk to her, explain your actions. Tell her that you didn't want to lose her as a best friend because you genuinely care for her. Tell her that you want to go back to where you both were in the friendship or you guys can start on a fresh leaf and leave the past behind. I hope this helps and I wish you good luck on your friendship :)

[Jabbawocke]

Errr. he said wut was on my mind. She aint no friend if she dont accept you boy

[Aquila]

Im going to go and talk today with her. We haven't really spoken in 2 weeks, and I'll see where she stands now. I'm really afraid that she'll take it badly though... wish me luck!

[Desuetude]

Im going to go and talk today with her. We haven't really spoken in 2 weeks, and I'll see where she stands now. I'm really afraid that she'll take it badly though... wish me luck!

Bit late now but just remember don't get too clingy and try to seem cool about it. You don't want to drive her away and if you really want to keep this friendship then it seems like you're going to have to hide your feelings for her because if you don't the same thing will happen and it will just hurt even more. Give her time, you never know she might come around to liking you more than a friend but don't push her, just be there for her.
Good luck though.