Efflorescence
March 21st, 2012, 11:50 AM
Some time ago I made a thread about my problems but things are getting worse so I decided to make a new one. It's long but I can't do otherwise :(
Where am I going to start?
Yeah....first of all I want to make it clear that I do not come from a dysfunctional family. My mum is not the easiest person to be with, but my dad makes up for that by being totally awesome.
However I'm not well. The thing is....... my problems come from within me. This has been going on for about 3-4 yrs! I think that I actually create problems where they don't exist. I had a smoking problem and an alcohol problem. But I do it all in an attempt to forget.
I know it's funny but it is actually others' problems that just don't let me be. I know it's pathetic ...... but sometimes I read stories on the Internet or elsewhere about kids who got abandoned by their parents or who are treated badly by stepparents or who are poor and stuff like that. And I feel depressed and angry to the point of forgetting my own problems to think about their problems when I know that I fuckin can't do anything about them!
Sometimes I suspect that I might have some kind of depression but what am I going to tell the psychologist or whoever? This whole rant? I'd rather die man. Plus that I've lost all faith in most of humanity. That's one of the side-effects.
Next month I will be doing my A-levels. I have to study but I'm getting distracted too easily due to my problems, which, are not actually mine. And my grades show it. Unbelievable man. There's always something
End of rant.
Where am I going to start?
Yeah....first of all I want to make it clear that I do not come from a dysfunctional family. My mum is not the easiest person to be with, but my dad makes up for that by being totally awesome.
However I'm not well. The thing is....... my problems come from within me. This has been going on for about 3-4 yrs! I think that I actually create problems where they don't exist. I had a smoking problem and an alcohol problem. But I do it all in an attempt to forget.
I know it's funny but it is actually others' problems that just don't let me be. I know it's pathetic ...... but sometimes I read stories on the Internet or elsewhere about kids who got abandoned by their parents or who are treated badly by stepparents or who are poor and stuff like that. And I feel depressed and angry to the point of forgetting my own problems to think about their problems when I know that I fuckin can't do anything about them!
Sometimes I suspect that I might have some kind of depression but what am I going to tell the psychologist or whoever? This whole rant? I'd rather die man. Plus that I've lost all faith in most of humanity. That's one of the side-effects.
Next month I will be doing my A-levels. I have to study but I'm getting distracted too easily due to my problems, which, are not actually mine. And my grades show it. Unbelievable man. There's always something
End of rant.