Mdma

[Sordid Saint]

Over the weekend I had the craziest rolling experience of my life. I was doing a show at an after party for my schools semiformal, and in the middle of my mix a kid I know pretty well came up and offered me some Molly. I have rolled before this but I don't know why this time I fully connected to the music that was playing, and also the people who were around me. I didn't remember what the past or the future was, I was just in the moment. But later that night when I was coming down I had verrrryyy overwhelming feelings of loneliness and emptiness. All day during school I was sitting in class depressed and desensitized and my brain could NOT focus on work at all. I never had a hangover from rollin like this before, just a very mellow feeling while my jaw is killing me. Did I just take more than I should have or could this be not related to taking e at all? I'm very confused

[ImCoolBeans]

This has everything to do with the drug use. After taking such a drug, and especially if you're an active drug user, the serotonin levels in your brain begin to be depleted. Don't worry, it does regenerate in time, but it's one bane of being a user. Serotonin is the chemical in the brain, along with dopamine, which makes you feel good when you accomplish something, have sex, or when you're really just feeling great. Ecstasy activates these neurotransmitters and begins to flood the brain with serotonin and dopamine giving you the intense pleasurable feeling. Not only does the drug activate the reward system, but it also blocks the reabsorption (re-uptake) of the left over hormones (serotonin and dopamine), so in turn the neuro-pathways are flooded and practically saturated in this feel-good cocktail. Since the re-uptake is blocked, specific neurons are sent out to dissolve and get rid of the hormones, and when you've finally come down from your high you are left feeling down in the dumps and depressed. It can be a lonely, disconnected feeling, and you may feel scared and helpless, but keep in mind that it isn't forever (as long as you stop the drug use for at least long enough for your brain and body to recover and regenerate).

You aren't really in serious physical danger concerning this, but your mind isn't in the best of shape at the moment. To boost your serotonin levels you should eat protein and fat, this will help a great deal. Don't over-do it and put on some unhealthy amount of weight, but when your feeling down you can eat a little protein (or fat) and it may help you. If you're feeling sleepy or tired because you feel upset/depressed you should try to resist the naps. Napping is not a very healthy alternative to just getting a solid night's sleep. Maintain a good sleep pattern, when you get a full cycle and your body rejuvenates itself, uninterrupted (where a nap would be interrupted), your brain recharges itself and does and maintenance work that may need to be taken care of (e.g. working on your hormone levels). Exercise and regular activity can also help improve serotonin levels, along with just hanging out with friends and not sitting around doing nothing. Try to do some of those and apply them to your life, they could really help. If you have any more questions, concerns or anything of that matter I'd be more than glad to help.

[Sordid Saint]

I knew a lot of that already about serotonin and stuff but I never felt like that coming off of Molly. I have been feeling down lately about certain things so I don't know if that's it but maybe its both the depleted serotonin and also feeling down that has me like this?

[ImCoolBeans]

I knew a lot of that already about serotonin and stuff but I never felt like that coming off of Molly. I have been feeling down lately about certain things so I don't know if that's it but maybe its both the depleted serotonin and also feeling down that has me like this?

You may have gotten a better grade than you have before, or maybe this was the one time that went over the line. The depleted serotonin levels makes you feel down and depressed alone, but if you say you've been feeling that way about other things as well it will only make it worse. I really suggest you lay off the drugs, it sounds like you and your body have a little catching up to do.

[Sordid Saint]

I'll always be using drugs man, I can't do anything without at least smoking and I will admit to that. Even though it does sound very low to say that, it's who I molded myself into. Now with that being said, I CAN be a fully functional part of society, as long as I'm not tripping every week, but I'm just a kid I don't really have much to worry about right now anyway besides like, school I guess even though I don't really see a future with that anyway unless I just go to school to further my skill with music software/hardware.

I know that when I say this we mean two totally opposite things, so don't get offended because I'm saying this with no attitude at all, but in my opinion, taking harmless or maybe even SOME semi harmless drugs is the best catching up that me and my body need. But I admit that 75% of the time I go overboard with it and I end up instead of trying to fix my problems in my head, I cause more hurt for myself or make myself Ben more confuse about the future and what I want later on in life.

But yes, I agree my body DOES need some time to repair and rejuvenate lol.