What wrong with me?

[kklondike]

I honestly don't know what is wrong with me. I'm normally a happy go lucky/sarcastic type or something but recently I don't if it's depression or what but I felt sorta down and untalkative. I get the normal sarcastic thoughts but i'm all like "why should I speak? I'll just shut up" and don't talk a lot. I didnt make an audition that was really important to me so I got upset, but I'm pretty sure I was over it. Then I'm just not listening in school, sort of not talking and when I do it's some mean snappy comment. It isn't really a mood swing since its been going on for some days and now I sometimes find my eyes tearing up randomly. It doesn't sound like depression really. I just don't know what's the matter with me. I also feel like I'm a burden, useless, and just plain naive and stupid sometimes and although I'm sure I'm not I just sometimes think it. Ha that probably sounded stupid. This probably sounds ridiculous too but I just noticed today I've only smiled once. Once. Im better online for some reason though. At school I laugh a little more but then my eating disordered friend who is recovering told me I was talking more about calories fat and food more than normal. Im a little worried even though it's probably just a phase. Just wanna know if anybody else has felt weird moody things like this? I'm exaggerating a little, and i think it might be from exhaustion (lack of sleep) but can this stuff even happen from exhaustion? and if this is in the wrong category sorry...i just didn't know where to post this.

[depressedinsanity]

Its built up sadness and possibly anger the same thing has been going on with me for years and if you want to get over it(and I know this is cheesy) just focus on the little things and its not as bad.

[Desuetude]

I honestly don't know what is wrong with me. I'm normally a happy go lucky/sarcastic type or something but recently I don't if it's depression or what but I felt sorta down and untalkative. I get the normal sarcastic thoughts but i'm all like "why should I speak? I'll just shut up" and don't talk a lot. I didnt make an audition that was really important to me so I got upset, but I'm pretty sure I was over it.
Well like you say its "normal" a lot of people get the same thoughts and of course it is fine to be upet after something that you wanted so much.
Then I'm just not listening in school, sort of not talking and when I do it's some mean snappy comment. It isn't really a mood swing since its been going on for some days and now I sometimes find my eyes tearing up randomly.
Not listening in school? Well you cant say that isn't normal. It could still be hormones and you will change as you get older. Mine was pretty darastic I guess going straight from being talkative and happy to a few weeks later always being in my room,not socialising and always angry and upset so yeah.
It doesn't sound like depression really. I just don't know what's the matter with me. I also feel like I'm a burden, useless, and just plain naive and stupid sometimes and although I'm sure I'm not I just sometimes think it. Ha that probably sounded stupid. This probably sounds ridiculous too but I just noticed today I've only smiled once.
Like the user above said look for the small good things and not the overall bad about the day. Allow yourself to laugh with friends or smile when the sun comes though the window. It isn't stupid and rediculous if it is making you feel bad, don't think that it doesn't matter because it does.
Once. Im better online for some reason though.
It's the same with me about being better when online, it's just easier to forget about things and focus on the fake (imaginary i guess you could call it) world on the computer.
At school I laugh a little more but then my eating disordered friend who is recovering told me I was talking more about calories fat and food more than normal.
Well that's okay to think about food a little, it's good to know whats going into your body. You just have to make sure it doesn't progress into something that could cause you more problems than do good. If your friend has an ED then talk to her about it if you think it's progressing and know that VT is always here to help.
Im a little worried even though it's probably just a phase. Just wanna know if anybody else has felt weird moody things like this?
I get like that sometimes, "happy" or normal one minute and banging my head against the wall, scrunching up my fists or my eyes welling up the next. You're not alone there, remember there are otehr who understand if only a little bit of what you're feeling or going through.
I'm exaggerating a little, and i think it might be from exhaustion (lack of sleep) but can this stuff even happen from exhaustion? and if this is in the wrong category sorry...i just didn't know where to post this.
It depends, how much sleep are you getting a night? It could be adding to it exhaustion wont help the matter whether it's the cause or not.
Sorry about the long reply, i had lots to say, hope some of it help a bit and you can always come to me if you want someone to talk to.